Sucrerie D'oeil

Lunar New Year 2012

2012-01-23T23:04:00.003+08:00

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR ! It's coming to the end of Day ONE (: How's your day so far? Mine has been really good (:

Chinese New Year has always been a period of time where relatives and friends come together. & of course, to the kids it's the Red Packets $.$ & playing non-stop!

Before the new year, families will start to do lots of things! For example, spring cleaning, buy new clothes & most importantly gather to have their Reunion Dinner (: & it's normally steamboat. hurhur~ In addition, there'll be a "Lou Hei" session! yippes~

However, to me, chinese new year is always full of steamboats, pineapple tarts, sweets, softdrinks, buffets! & not to forget the yearly decorations my dad love!

Everyone prepares & day 1 usually starts early!

For me, the first day would be paying visits to the older generations (: Love it because family bonds (: Sometimes, relatives meet once a year. & I think it's pretty bad. So it's time to treasure every single meeting yea? & it's sort of a catching up with one another.

Thank God that the first day of CNY, I was feeling better. On the eve, my whole body was aching, shivering, vomited. Took in a total of 6 panadols, unwillingly. Phew~

However, I'm feeling quite bad now. Gotta head to bed and tata~ SLEEP for speedy recovery!

DAY2 tomorrow~

2012萧敬腾世界巡回演唱会 - 新加坡站

2012-01-14T23:59:00.008+08:00

Live Concerts has always been my favourite! It has been quite some time since I last went for a concert, think the last one I went was S.H.E 's Concert ~ I still remember my cousin was still pregnant with Carrick(my nephew)!

Now I've had an enthusiastic companion - WENDY (: So happy^.^

What's more awesome when the artist is a powerful singer? Double hooray!

Live concert is always different from TV. The sound system, the atmosphere is something you would want to experience yourself. Nothing can compare to that! (:

P/S: Sorry 'bout the pictures' quality! ):

Are you ready? Lets GO!

2012萧敬腾世界巡回演唱会 STARTS NOW~

This light stick is PURPLE! But camera always captures blue instead. Oh well~

But the theme is PURPLE(: Nice~

When he smile/laugh/giggle, I think he's so CUTE.

& good things always have to end! But it ends beautifully(:

I've heard the 4 songs that I love(: SHOUT HOORAY!

As usual, he speaks little. But he's so funny when he wanted to talk more. hurhur~ Can't have enough of his "weirdness". HAHAHA!

Guess what sentence he said the most?

"大家好! ~" & "你們好嗎? ~"
(& the voice is the kind that fades off. LOL)

I swear he's damn cute. Awwwwwwww~ ♥

Sands Skypark

2012-01-10T14:55:00.004+08:00

I'm being a mountain tortoise here today. I'm gonna show you guys the view from Marina Bay Sands Skypark, as high as level 57.

I made my way there yesterday with Esther(: Being a total idiot, we both were so amazed when we stepped out of the lift. Felt as though we were at Genting because of the fog. Moreover, the weather was really cooling and it drizzled a little.

Of course we spammed pictures, like what I said earlier, like a mountain tortoise.
p/s: For your info, mountain tortoise means "don't know the world, not knowledgeable, total idiot" Simply because you live in the mountain.

But the view is really beautiful.

See the pool there?

The dark clouds.

The night view.

Dream

2012-01-09T12:38:00.004+08:00

Have you ever dream of a scenario and wouldn't want to wake up to?

Well, once in awhile, I do.

The dream gave emotions and feelings that are so real. When I woke up, I felt both happy & sad. Happy because I really do feel the happiness of the dream & sad because it's just a dream.

Today, I woke up to a dream which involves a swimming pool, together with the dearest people in my life(: It's a nice dream that doesn't involve any dramatic emotions(:

& I went to google about the meaning, the meaning of a swimming pool in a dream.

Swimming Pool
To see a swimming pool in your dream symbolizes relaxation, calmness, luxury and ease. You need to take a break. Alternatively, a swimming pool suggests that you need to acknowledge and understand your feelings. It is time to dive in and deal with those emotions. You need to cleanse yourself and wash away past hurts. Consider the depth of the pool. If you were swimming on the deep end, then it means that those emotions are deeply seeded and may be harder to confront.. You will need to work through it, no more matter how difficult. If you are swimming on the shallow end, then it implies that you should be able to easily deal with your feelings.
To see an empty swimming pool in your dream suggests that you are literally feeling empty and devoid of emotions.
To dream that the swimming pool is filled with trash indicates that you are leading a lifestyle of excess. You need to tone it down and discard some of the negative emotions in your life.

I think this dream I had is more to the first paragraph (:

Well, perhaps it's true. & I really think that I should cleanse myself & wash away the past hurts.

Swimming
There are many factors within this dream to consider, if you are swimming and enjoying the experience then you feel your life is secure and you feel loved.

Well, here is the answer to the action of "Swimming".

But how true would be these interpretation? I don't know.

Sometimes, I would rather not dream if reality is better (:

The First Step

2012-01-08T21:32:00.002+08:00

2012 has been nice to me so far. A really beautiful start to the year. First day of 2012 with the clique - Picnic @ Marina Barrage .

The weather was cool too! A little sun burnt too though! Burnt because I looked up the see our kite! BooO! hahaa!

Thank you Christina for the awesome photos! (:

It's really wonderful to have this bunch of people in my life! So glad to have them & still having them (:

Too tired to do other things. We headed back to heartland, grab a drink at Starbucks, chit-chatted, go crazy with iPhone's game - Temple Run ; & the card game - Monopoly Deal.

Simple yet Awesome. That's what I'm looking for.

Looking forward to more awesome moments (:

Chapter 2011

2011-12-31T00:05:00.010+08:00

2011 has been an awesome year! Full of ups and downs, a journey in which I learnt a lot & so much that I couldn't put them into words.

People that left, people that came. It's part and parcel of life. I got to accept the fact that sometimes, no matter how much you want things to be your way, it can't be done.

It's a year that I've play so much, enjoyed so much, studied so hard.

I think I've live this year to its fullest. I've tasted the bitter sweet sour, the heart ached so much, the tears formed a river. Well, all I can say is - Make sure you do your best.

If you've tried your best, it'll be the best.

20th Birthday ^.^

MET D&D

RWS - USS!

First time experiencing a mini songkran day~

"ACTING" as a netball student~

Graduation Day!

Bye Temasek Polytechnic!

Bye Nature's Farm!

UNLV - REBEL 17!

The painters' wall.

Thailand (BKK-KORAT)

Graduated from Temasek Polytechnic & stepped into SIT-UNLV as a student of Hospitality Administration. This new journey of mine has been awesome (: I've met nice people and I am really thankful to have them.

I've experienced travelling alone, to Thailand - Bangkok & Korat. It's a really different experience and I'm so glad that I had this opportunity to do so(: Also, I've met really nice friends~ & I really miss them! Hope to see them soon!

The regrets would be letting the people leave my life. It is definitely a hard lesson learnt. Thanks for the lovely people around me, and pulling me through. I'm really shock by myself, by how strong and how weak I am.

I also learn to appreciate every single thing and person in my life. Although I might grumble and nag and express my dislike, but I promise I'll try to stop this! Yes I am gonna accept every thing for how it's like.

Wishing 2012 to be an AWESOME year too(: & world peace. No end of world please. I've not experience enough.

& I LOVE ♥ EVERYONE yeps! (:

Special thanks to my Family & Friends. Thanks for being there whenever I needed, in any form. Really deeply appreciated. Without you all, I won't be me today. I can't imagine myself without any of you. It'll definitely be difficult to live life without any of you. ♥

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Singapore Zoo

2011-12-30T23:49:00.004+08:00

CLICK ME!

I'm so happy that I visited the Zoo on 28th October 2011 (: I had so much fun with Cherelle! & I've taken too much photos & it's kinda tedious for me to post the photos here! Thus, visit the album here! For your info, the album contains only selected photos! Which means I've got much more photos with me that I didn't upload them!

It's fun and tiring! But I'm so proud of us! We completed the whole ZOO! (: & in the end, we're both so drained. But it's the process that's beautiful~ LOVE

November Family Picnic

2011-12-29T23:14:00.000+08:00

YEAH to family gathering! Love days like this! (:

It's always nice to gather together, updating each other and just simple talks and have fun! Using Children's Day as an opportunity to meet up, enjoying the breeze, yummy food, snap snap snap, chatting, playing with the kids~ That's LOVE (:

Treasure your family. You never know how precious they are. And the power of this love is ultimate. Without them, I doubt I'll make it through the rocky and happy moments. & I doubt I'll be who I am today(:

The dearest of the dearest.

Mini Getaway

2011-12-28T23:28:00.001+08:00

There's this mini getaway with the ladies before winter term! Once again, it's to Resort World Sentosa - Hotel Michael (: Nope, not bored at all! Because it's with the girls! Sadly, Vikita wasn't with us again )':

Finally when Yvonne and Wendy knocked off from work, we had dinner at Habour Front (: & Wendy and I headed for MOVIE - Already Famous (:

It was a night movie and it ended about midnight~

& we made our way back to the hotel to join the girls~

STOP! We snapped snapped snapped on our way back! With the Christmas atmosphere (:

Back in room, SNAPPED all the way again~

& that night ends at 5am ! The bed is so comfy that we must sleep! hahaha!

LOVE <3

Dearest Sister's Birthday

2011-12-27T23:59:00.001+08:00

Hohoho~ This is a expire event that I'm gonna present to you today! (: On the 2nd December 2011, a surprise was thrown to my Erjie, Michelle~

The Crews for the Surprise~

Watched the movie - Breaking Dawn Part 1 - at Cathay Platinum Suites! WOW! =D

Thanks to sis's hubby! (:

The funniest part was bluffing my sis that I wasn't free on that day! Because I keep pestering her, before the movie's release date, that we shall watch together!! & DANGZZZ! When she asked me to watch, I pulled out lame excuses! hahaha! Phew~ Lucky she believe me (: TRUST. haha!

This is her, being forced, to wear something!

Reluctantly, she accepted!

& no face to show people! hahaha!

Cupcakes to represent the Birthday Cake (: Yummy anyway! =D

May your wishes come true sis! (:

& NOW, the MOVIE~

The menu !!!

It's really awesome! WOW man!

The most comfortable position that I had while watching a movie in the cinema! Really worth the price! Got blanket too! & the chair is OSIM's chair I guess. WOW!

After the movie, after much laughter! Really enjoyed so much! Ah Zhen is really so funny!!!! Sitting beside her during the movie, laugh non-stop and lucky the cinema is dark and no one recognized me! hahahaha!

Another surprise @ Lao Pa Sat by the kids (:

Sweet isn't it? Aww~

Happy Birthday dearest sis!

You've always been a wonderful sister & I'm so glad to have you. Because of you, my life is so awesome & you're someone who's always there for me. Always listening to my complains and always guiding me through. Love ya sis! (: Know that you're beautiful & awesome, just like that.

With love,

Ah girl.

Something Awesome

2011-12-27T00:06:00.008+08:00

Hello! I'm so glad to come back here after a hard-intensive 2 weeks in school - Winter term. It's seriously hectic and madness. But wooots~ I live with it & I enjoyed the process (:

Madness because . . . 2 weeks with 2 modules with 4 tests, 2 projects, 1 presentation. W.O.W

Fun because . . . I've an awesome team! and of course, professor Zainal was nice too ~ That sum up the whole 2 weeks that I had.

No. It's not all about school only! Heh heh ~

Because there's Christmas Lunch with the clique & Christmas Gift Exchange too!

AND there's this day that we went to Boulervard @ The Red Dot. Just because we need details to complete our report~ yeah.

AND THEN, there's this trip to St. Regis Singapore - LaBrezza.

& I had dinner with Huiyin WeiShan & YiXuan too! @ Mount Sophia , CHALKS

By the way, look at the stairs we climbed. & WOW. I'm in my heels.

AND OF COURSE, there are times that we spent in school~

AND THE LAST DAY!

Now that the bullet train period has past, it's time for me to replenish my sleep! Been so deprived of sleep and I had panda eyes over this 2 weeks. T_T I want to cry! PANDA EYES. I've never had this before! EEEEEEK! & I'm so sick of MacDonals. -_-"""

Oh well~

3 weeks of heaven (: I promise to update this space more often alright (:

Entries on the queue:

1) Sis's Birthday Surprise

2) Sweet Escape to RWS

3) Family Picnic

4) Zoo

Yipees~ That's all folks! (:

Within the Everyday

2011-12-12T00:01:00.000+08:00

Fall 2 with Rebel 17 was awesome(: Somehow misses fall2. It's the end of fall 2 anyway! And also, holiday for fall2 is over! I've got school at 8am in the morning and I think I'm gonna feel very tired. Planned to sleep at 10pm but nah, fail.

Hectic life, projects and assignments every week. Major project presentation. Everything seems like a nightmare now. Bits and pieces with the cliques~

- Crowne Plaza Trip -

- Market Trip @ LITTLE INDIA -

This trip ended early and we went to discover little india a little.

Our threaded eyebrows @ Little India(:

& My hanna-ed leg.

- Dinner with ENG114 group mates -

Dinner & discussion for presentation!

ENG114 Group dinner~

- LODGING PRESENTATION DAY -

- End of Fall2 CELEBRATION -

Thai Food at Goldenmile. Goldenmile is known as a little thailand in Singapore! (: So wanna go back to Thailand soon man. Dessert at Geylang Lor 15, DURIAN ~

A picture taken at Goldenmile~

Buhbye Fall 2. Hello Winter 1.

Wow~ 3 posts for you people(:

Need some sleep soon! & you guys could visit my Facebook for more photos~

*YAWNS*

Oldies November

2011-12-11T23:59:00.000+08:00

I'm so glad that in the busy schedule I had in November, I'm still able to meet the very old clique! (: Call them the oldies. HAHA~ Yups! They're the secondary school people(:

1) CHERELLE'S Advance 20th BIRTHDAY is the first meet up!(:

2) DINNER @ PUNGGOL FRIENZIE

Actually that dinner was meant to be a celebration dinner for Cherelle too, but in the end it turns out to be more like a gathering dinner~ Well, happy tho! Got to meet people that I haven't got a chance to meet(: & also our teacher! CHONG SK.

Oh by the way, this is lunch! haha!

This camwhore pictures of me is here because I want to tell you, I love the camera Christina brought that day! Damn awesome!

3) Time Capsule @ Punggol Secondary School

Candy's Capsule!

Opening~~

Don't remember that that is my toy in the capsule!

HAHA~ That's what I wrote!

The wall outside staffroom. Painted by Candy, Huiyin, Christina and Mr Lim KH!

It's really a fruitful month(: Appreciate the opportunity to meet the people(: So much love. Now that everyone has his/her own things to do, time is really precious when it comes to meeting like this. Very Happy! yeahhh!

October babies

2011-12-10T22:54:00.000+08:00

October has always been the busiest month for me . The close people in my life was born that month(:

This year's October, had a birthday chalet for my nieces. I enjoyed myself (: It's holiday back then! Who don't enjoy yeah~

Birthday girls (:

A gift from Val to Cleo ~

& also a gift for Chloe

She's so cute isn't it?

Not to forget another birthday baby! Angela~

Oh by the way, 3 of them have birthday next in sequence! 14th for Cleo, 15th for Angela, 16th for Chloe!

Kids playing Kinnect

Swimming time! What a sexy pose they have huh!

& BBQ~

Chalet's bed are always not comfy. That's boooo! Nevertheless, I enjoyed (:

Baking!

2011-10-26T22:16:00.004+08:00

It's the start of Fall 2 already! This also mean that my holidays are over! BOO.
But nevertheless, I've made full use of it(:

Basically I've about a week of break. &I've been playing with flours, chocolates and my oven for the last 4 days!

I've baked normal cupcakes, chocolate chip cupcakes, chocolate cupcakes & chocolate cornflakes! I love the chocolate chip cupcakes the best! & I'm trying my best to figure out the frosting part (: But plain is nice~

The first day of baking, I did it together with Azlin! (:

The remaining days, I did it myself(:

This is the chocolate cornflakes~

(There's 'WENDY' on it cause after baking, I went to look for her. So I gave her some~)

By looking at the photos, I so wanna bake again!
All I need is time! But since school has a hectic schedule, I guess it's difficult! But I will try! (: Perhaps Public holidays or weekends! yeah!

Esther's AhGoGo 21st Birthday

2011-10-17T18:21:00.004+08:00

* Warning! Photo-intensive! *

Attended my first ever Themed Party on Friday. It's my University friend, Esther, 21st Birthday Celebration!

We also helped her in decorating the chalet since check-in (: Meanwhile, we also enjoyed ourselves! Maybe the photos would tell you everything!

& here are the playing photos we took~

Snap Snap Snap~ AND we end up playing with this! By right it's meant for the guys! But heh heh! We pose photos with it first! hurhur~

The first attempt failed! Can't stop laughing and giggling when we self-took it!

Saw the process? We got better and better each time!

AND TADA! We changed into our AH-GO-GO outfit of the day! =D

And now! You see the perfected Ahgogo ladies, with mustache!

Snap Snap Snap ~ Still snapping =D

So the party goes on with foods~ BBQ~ Card games~

That night was really awesome! =D
The people I met is really a blessing to my life (: Thank God for these friends! ^.^

Anyway! Happy 21st Birthday ESTHER!

POP!

2011-10-09T22:25:00.002+08:00

After 2 months of hard work, the guys finally POP-ed yesterday! Together with Huiyin & Cherelle, we attended their POP ceremony at Marina's Floating Platform~ The ROAR they performed still manage to make me laugh despite seeing it for the 2nd or 3rd time. So funny! haahhaha~

Yeah~ The sun was doing its job. The weather is powerfully hot. We all got to wake up when the sun haven't rise and travel all the way down. So by the time we reached there, we're all damn tired. Partly due to the heat too.

Anyway! Managed to meet Sunny, Eric and Ernest! There're still many of the guys there but didn't get to see them! Especially RICKY! So disappointed.

The day didn't end yet! 3 of us headed town for food and shopping! =D

It's all long day for me! Had dinner at Taste of Thailand with family (: P.S. No photos tho! heh heh~ Well, it's a form of celebrating dad's birthday in advance since bruddabun would be in camp on Tuesday.

Yeah, so bro & I split the cost and it's quite cheap! (: Worth it nah. Chilli Crab, Fried Sotong, Pineapple Friedrice, Kankong with Samba chilli, Fried Thai mee, Fried fish, Tomyam Soup. Yumyum. Definitely going back soon! =D

Oh here's the photos taken during Kelly's Wedding about a month ago (:

It's nice to meet the Farmers again (: Miss working with them. Aww~ They're nice people(:

Know why I miss work? Well partly because of the people. Another part of the reason would be the income! =D I mean, who wouldn't want income to come in every month right? So I wouldn't need to think about $$$ ! Ahhhhh~ Seriously need to start working soon, again.

Okay. Think I gonna end here tonight. I have lesson tomorrow morning & gotta wake up in awhile. Which means EARLY. & it's the last week of Fall 1 already. Ending in 3 days. Which means in 3 days time, i'm having my Final Exam for Intro to Hospi. STRESS already ):

Yup. So tata.

Massive Update~

2011-10-03T15:38:00.004+08:00

Oh actually, not that massive. LOL!

Nah~ I've just posted a post regarding the outing to Marina Barrage with Rebel17 (:

Anyway! School has been heavy and it's coming to the end of Fall 1. Now is week 6 already! Week 7 would be the end.

Well, it has been homework homework homework and test test test. Weekly basis.

Beside school, I've also been meeting my friends~ Trying to catch up with one another's live. Yeah, time is being spread. Felt so dead that I didn't found a job yet ): Awwww.

It has been about a month since I last updated this little space! Well actually I can't really remember what has happened. That's sad.

Ummmmmmmm. I chose some photos to share anyway! =D

This was during a saturday, when we're celebrating dearest Azlin's birthday (: yeah!

& a kiss from her~ Awwww~ LOVES

Oh and this! Finally met up with this Benson! Like a long only! Been like donkey years since we last met !!!

& Cherelle! Glad to meet her quite often these few days(:

& It's very fast, the guys are having their POP this saturday! Congratulations~ WOAHH~

Okay! I'll try to come back soon kays! I'll try to update this space often! OKOK I TRY. =D

I've been telling everyone that my course is damn speed train. Last last week quiz1, last week quiz2, this week mid-term, next week exam and END. HAHAHA~

Oakay! See you guys soon! (:

Rebel 17 PotLuck!

2011-10-03T14:53:00.005+08:00

HELLO! It's close to the end of Fall 1 ~

when school first started, Rebel 17 had our first "orientation" at Marina Barrage (: Yeah, since we're all unfamiliar with one another! It's a good time to know each other and BOND(:

Yeah! And I got sun burnt at the shoulder/neck area! The sun is tooooooooooo generous. Hahaha~

As you can see, i wore thighs! and I'm not regretting it or never did I regret! hahaha! The sun is really WOW and can really burn you alive. So yeah! I wore that to protect me skin! yeahyeah! =D

Yeah~ So this is part of the class(:

Love this jump shot! =D

Yeah~ The class is awesome(:

Below are my clique of friends! ^.^

This is Zhi Ting~ She's really nice! & she's smart!!!!!! =D

& this is Yuan Xin ~ She's from TP Engine school tooooOO!O!O!O!O!

She's such a nice girl! (: & we've got so many things in common! Yeah MANY!

School will not be fun without them! (: yeah!

Awesome people~

"That's not very much"

2011-09-07T22:23:00.004+08:00

Just a mini update before I head to bed! Yes I know it's pretty early! But you know what! 8am lessons are not a joke! Just need plenty of sleep & the day would be fine. Although tomorrow's lesson will start in noon, i just need my sleep. HAHAHA! Okays, put it this way - I am getting sleep as much as I could now. Because when I got myself a job, I would be insanely working.

Remaining of this week is gonna be exciting! There's class orientation aka bonding! There's wedding-lunch to attend! There's steamboat dinner with oldie clique! Aren't all this plans making you excited? Well it's making me happy(:

I miss all my ladies a lot. Yes, from various cliques! & those Singaporean Son that are inside the camp! Just gotta spend time together. Slacking around doing nothing make me very contented.

It's great that I find school fine (: Nice faculty, nice classmates. ^.^

Oh!!! & I thought I should spend some time on completing my blog entry for the Thailand trip this year! Okay, I should sit down & do it. Maybeeeeeeeee~ tomorrow if I've got the time! OKOK! Try alright! (: Should be done soon! I hope.

& I just hope to get myself a DSLR, a Macbook!
OMGOMGOMG.
Been thinking about the DSLR. Should I get a Canon DSLR or a Canon Semi-pro or a olympus-pen . Dilemma !

& I thought I should share this photo I saw on tumblr. Love it simply because it's so cute~

Bye! :O

Change

2011-09-03T23:44:00.003+08:00

Hey peeps! A little update before I head to bed! ^>^

Yes, another journey of my life started since Monday. I'm now studying in UNLV Singapore (: Well, i somehow feel the stress! While studying, I need to find a part-time job related to my course of study. So it's kind of like a pack schedule ! But now it's still quite free, cause I haven't found a job yet! So shall see how it goes!

Time spent with friends are getting lesser! Mainly because we all have our own stuff to do. It's not easy to find a perfect time that all of us can make it! That's sad. But well, just hope everyone try(: & we'll sooner or later meet (:

Sometimes, it's best not to speak.
& sometimes things are spoken in the wrong way.

Communication is a very powerful thing. It can break a relationship when there's a communication breakdown. It can bring a relationship so much closer. It can make a relationship drift.
Like WOW.

Tender loves.

2011-08-05T16:10:00.002+08:00

Forget who hurt you yesterday, but remember who loves you tenderly today .

I'm shivering in office now! A bit stupid cause I can increase the air-con temperature! But ! okay, i shall do it. Wahahahahaha! stupidity.

Finally here's sometime to update this little space of mine! (:

Well, life 'bout work, family, friends.
Realized that I've been spending much lesser time with my family. Because work took up big portion of my day! & remaining time has to be distributed among my different cliques!
Need time need time. & I'm so deprive of sleep! hahahaha!

Oh! wait! Little photos to share! Taken from thailand (: &&&& This is not a proper update of my thailand trip i know. Just let photos do the talking first yeah(;

Okay, & I miss them so much! Nice people ~ Really blessed to know them! ^,^
Miss Thailand, I'm so going back la!
& I can't thank them enough! They're the people that accompanied me during my stay there! When you're outside alone, your friends are really the ones that you can lean on! So appreciate your friends !! (:

I may seem strong, I may seem like I've a good planning. I may seem like I'm on track, I may seem like I'm focus on what I want. But sometimes, I don't know what I want.
My thoughts. That's a complicated thing. Makes me feels like I'm in a dilemma. Sometimes even irony.
Another problem with me is expectations and disappointment.
I get disappointed easily. Perhaps I don't show it, but i feel them strongly! This sucks.

Aiiiyayayyaa! Shit this la. hahahaha!

(: 可能你不觉得，但我是这样觉得的。你真的会忽冷忽热。很讨厌，你知不知道！

Mini update

2011-07-28T16:14:00.003+08:00

Been very busy these few weeks!
I was back from Thailand last week! Had such an awesome experience there & I met new people(: Thanks to the people that accompanied me throughout the trip! ^.^
& next was Wendy's 21st Birthday Chalet! Hope she had fun! ((:

& I'm busying with 2 projects on hand! Haven't complete any! so dead. Imma start tonight!!
Meeting the ladies tomorrow for dinner! Need time need time! I need time for my family, need time for my friends, need time for myself, need time to SLEEP & I need money. HAHAHAHAHA!

Okays. Photos updates in FB(:

tata.

Buhbye Singapore

2011-07-13T23:45:00.002+08:00

Buhbye peeps!(:
Miss me ya! (: Loves.

Working Life

2011-07-11T09:26:00.002+08:00

Good morning peeps! It's a MONDAY morning! I'm awake very early today to catch a ride from Godpa to work! Now I'm in office, waiting for the delivery to come. Delivery come implies that there's work to do!

July is gonna be a busy month for me! I've got so much to do! Too much incomplete stuff! & I can't wait for July to come to an end. But irnoically, I don't want it to end! Because the end of July means that August is here, school is starting, holidays are ending.

No pictures today tho, cause i'm using this office computer! =D Well, visit my Facebook for photos. Most photos are up there! (:

Anyway, had a meetup with the oldy clique! It's nice to laugh like shyt together! Awesome people(: More of it soon please! ((:

What else? OH ! I'll be having my getaway on Thursday(: You've gotta miss me! Excited on this trip! Well, in case i've got no time to say bye before i leave, BYE NOW!
Lots of Love!

LIKE

2011-06-16T18:50:00.002+08:00

Yooohuuuu~ How's life people! It's mid-june already!
Can't wait for June to end! I don't know why, but i'm feeling this way! hurhur~

Ahwell~ The veins around my left jaw's area hurts like shit. It's been pulling since midnight!
Damn. Don't know what to do!
Previously was the tongue! Hurts with ulcers and numb. -_-'''
What's happening to me? Maybe too heaty! So i need to drink more water!
I'm gonna drink 3-4 liters of water daily! YES!
TARGET!

^.^

& I've got so much things to do, but not done!
Like taking my own sweet time! This is so not on track!

I want a getaway! Thinking if I should work.
Ah shit. So many thoughts running but nothing is done.
walamak -.-" FAINT

Okay i think i shall do something now instead of lazing infront of the laptop and my phone!
I shall get ready the things needed for tuition! Do the birthday card for dolly!
Then set days to settle SIT stuff !

huge loads of things.

Hello June (:

2011-06-10T22:46:00.002+08:00

Hey hey! It's 10 days passed June~ Half an awesome year past! ^.^
Been grateful with all the things that happened this 6 months(: Being in deep shit before makes you realize how little things can make you happy and appreciative^.^

So now that I've officially graduated, I'm officially a student of SIT-UNLV (: So that's my next phrase of learning journey. Bet it's gonna be exciting and awesome too! & school term starts around 2 months plus later~

Meanwhile, I'm idling around - JOBLESS. FUCK.
Whatever. Not totally jobless lah. I'm giving tuition on saturdays. Well, at least got some moolah.
Anyway, i enjoy idling around! heh heh(: Just sucks when you see the digits in the bank keep depleting. HAHAHA!

Okay! Photo speaks next kays(:

From 51 to 98 ~ LOL! all the numbers .

Mummy's Birthday((:

Ahbee's coach test! We're the teammates! (ACTOR/ACTRESSES)

The day at 51Jazzy!

Dumpling Making at Huiyin's place!

Bobby's Kiss ((: *CUTENESS MAX*

Yeah(: Can't wait for more exciting events coming up!(:
Perhaps I shall go back. Should i? A little better than nothing?
ummm~

Goodbye TP

2011-05-29T23:03:00.002+08:00

Officially a graduand from Temasek Polytechnic, MET!

Yeah(:
So proceed on with my next journey, I've accepted SIT-UNLV!
^.^

あなたは恋しい

2011-05-24T15:58:00.003+08:00

Hello! (: It's been awesome recently!
*glad*

Met up with most of the people & had an awesome time together(:

What are words when you really don't mean them when you say them?
Then, what are the laughter when you really don't mean them when you type them in a conversation?
Is it a conversation killer? Doing it halfheartedly?
Oh well~

いまなにしてるの… Keeps me wondering.
我也想不要想, 但事情如果那麼簡單就好了.
如果感覺與想像能和 "說到做到" 那麼簡單就好了.
我也想要和你有那麼豐富的人生, 但我沒有, 不是我不要.
^.^

It's gonna be & will be.

2011-05-16T12:15:00.003+08:00

So how's everyone?

Met up with Yvonne & Huiyin last thursday! (: Love the way it is! 'cause even though we don't always meet, the laughter and talks never decreases! ((:

Friday night at Fiftyone~ with the women! hahaha~
AWESOME LAH! I laugh till mad with Wendy! Seriously epic!
"Eh knn, love you" - inside joke.
hehehehe~ =E

& it's his last day!

WOW! Last minute meetup with Rachel! (: Nice catching up! The last time we met was like donkey years ago! Glad that things don't change thought we rarely meet. We still laugh like shit, talk like sai. HAHAHA! ((:

Caught Priest on Sunday! (: Not bad! 3D !
& that's my lucky note. hehe~

So it's mid-may already!(: time flies~

& I always remember what you said.

Mummy's Day

2011-05-08T02:39:00.005+08:00

Mummy loves their children;
Mummy nags at them;
Mummy punished us;
Mummy protects all the time;
Mummy settled all the stuff;
Mummy cleans your wound;
Mummy walk you through;
Mummy gave their lifetime to us;
Mummy provides all the needs;
Mummy fulfill your wants;
Mummy did all;

Don't they deserve to be treated better? Not only on Mothers' Day. They deserve all the 365 days each year.
Sometimes they can be really long winded and it really do pisses us off. But put yourself in her shoe. She's got so many many thoughts running in her mind, she's got so many things to do and she still has to give you naggings which you wouldn't like. But of all, she cares. There isn't a mother that doesn't care for her child. Deep down, they do.
So when your mom shows that she cares, appreciate it. Because the fact is that there are moms that doesn't show that they care. It's the way people express themselves - can't be blame.

Mothers, stay beautiful and healthy. May you be bless with the love and warm from your child, because the love and warm they had is what you've given them, ever since that minute you realized their existence.
Being a mother isn't a simple job. Once a mother, always a mother. No matter how old your kids are, the love and care from your mother doesn't stop. The position of a mother last a lifetime, even till the minute of departure. & the position wouldn't be replace. It stays and remains.

Be thankful, you've a wonderful mother.
Be grateful, you've a SUPER mother.

Keep the smile of your mom, cause its precious. & never forget to let her smile, it's a simple task.
(:

Happy Mothers' Day to all mums around the world! ^-^

Till we meet again.

2011-05-06T11:55:00.004+08:00

Have you ever wonder what's on the other side/sides? You know, the things that happens around you is just one sided. What about the rest?

Somewhere this time, you're eating while people are sleeping.
Somewhere this time, you're enjoying while people are having their worse.
Somewhere this time, you're using the computer and others are exercising.
Somewhere this time, you're the happiest people on earth while others are crying.
Somewhere this time, someone is born while someone has gone.
Somewhere this time, you're dreaming while people are chasing their dreams.
Somewhere this time, there's couples form and some turns to single.

Well~

There are going to be so much more, too much possibility to mention.
But perhaps what's on the other side doesn't matter. It only matters when wanna know what's happening in someone's life.

& sometimes it's pretty tired and hurtful to have to wait for someone, not knowing what's happening in his/her life.

There are so many descriptions that can be continued behind perhaps.
There are so many words that follows if.
There are million of thoughts you can have for one person.
These are too much that one being can handle.

The waves never reach the shore. They come and go.

Oh well oh well. .
Some pictures of my life (: to share ~

Gonna miss you, missing you.

恋しいびび

2011-04-27T15:16:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps. (:

I'm just so busy yet free. You know what I mean? People are busy working yet I'm so free from work. & I've not been staying at home~ Been out almost daily, learning Japanese! & my tutor is Azlin~ Azlin sansei ! hurhur.

Learning Japanese is fun~ I never thought I would be able to read them and write them in such a short period of time! (: Pretty awesome~
hehe~ Can't thank my sansei enough. hehe~

Well~
Perhaps things are turning. That freaking feeling is back. Something which I hate! I tried to stop that, but somehow it comes around another way. There's nothing much I can do. So think I should just continue how it's like and just wait for you to show me that it's alright, it's okay.
But DAMN! IRRITATING!
=D

Okay~ TMD TMD TMD.

Think I need it. BUT . FUCK luh~

びび

2011-04-21T18:47:00.002+08:00

So how have you guys been?
Tomorrow is GOOD FRIDAY!

I'm so happy with myself this week! I've been learning Japanese from Azlin since monday!
& today! I'm able to recognize many characters! =D yeah! HAPPY~
Thank you for the timeeeeee Azlin! hehe~

Just visited the doctor. I've been coughing for 'bout a month!
The doctor scare me by telling me I've to revisit them in a week time! If the condition aren't any better, I'm to go for a x-ray! WTF. Got so serious meh?

Long weekends ahead, CHEERS~

สวัสดีปีใหม่ไทย!

2011-04-14T02:18:00.002+08:00

Happy SongKran Day to all the Thai friends and people and everyone! =D
It's the first year I actually heard about this, & unexpectedly, I was at 51 with Erjie today! & they do have "water-war" . Light one tho. Heard goldenmile really do splash! haha!

(:

This fellow! Keep spraying me the minute he saw me!
& when the lights are on (end of the day) he took a bottle and secretly wanted to splash me from the back before he leave!! Lucky I turned back! If not ! harhar! Badboy.

So that's my wednesday~

& I was down at 51 with Azlin on Monday as well as last Friday!
Freaking me! I was there since last Friday, Monday & Wednesday! So hardcore! haahaha!

Well~ So just some random photos of last Friday & Monday ya! (:

Anyway!!! 14th April today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY GYM! =D

Quote for today : Expect the Unexpected! (:

I realized, what you always wanted probably don't come. Then disappointment comes along. And it's the unexpected that always lightens the darkness.

<3

When Days are this precious,

2011-04-07T16:29:00.005+08:00

Ahhhhh~ I'm so happy with all the lalas that happened =D

(: I've a group of lovely awesome ladies ! I've a group of san-ba womens! I've a group of oldies! & they're really precious to me(:

hehe~

So that night was at fiftyone again with more people~ Not ladies night only, & it's as awesome! ((:
The night continues at resort too~ (:

The 90s to the 70s. HAHA! (:

PHOTOS OF THAT NIGHT HERE!

Next, I stepped into Resort World Singapore! (: A 3D2N stay at Hotel Michael (: Thanks to Azlin's Uncle!((: Lovely getaway with my ladies!!

Our Day in Universal Studio Singapore!

We conquered the scariest first! - Cylon & Human !

Our tall tower! & lunch! (:

(: Lovely ladies hugging to sleep~ LOL!

Camwhoring with my darling~

I've had so much fun! My soul like half dangling around after the Cylon & Human Roller Coaster Ride! HAHAHA! But very fun! =D

So fun so fun~

The times when we wear our sleeping clothes, walking around resort world~
3 meals settled in Biats, Ding Tai Feng!
The ice creams from Candylicious!
The rides.
The 22 cans of beer!
The card games!
The slacking!
The pool~
ahhhh~ All so AWESOMEEEEEEEE =D
Simply all so awesome because the ladies were there! ((:

MORE PHOTOS HERE! (:
ALBUM 1 , ALBUM 2

& today, I'm not afraid anymore. Thank God that it happened soon enough, that things are so much better. Because today, I don't need to wander around with the thoughts and wonders.
So much better(: & I did it all with my smile(:

GO! SMILE! =D

peep peep

2011-03-27T17:04:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I wonder, if there's a twist in that moment, how would today be?
Sometimes I wonder, if there's a stop at that point, how would today be?

& today I wondered, if one day we meet, how would it be?
It's gonna be weird i guess.
I wonder if I should look you in the eyes, smile like nothing ever went wrong or smile like strangers. But one definite thing, I would never pretend I don't know you, pretend that we never ever met.

Perhaps I should fake a smile so you won't see.

Oh, and these are just some thoughts ((:

I miss my ladies!

Awesome Peeps.

2011-03-21T13:35:00.002+08:00

Spent my Sunday morning with parents and the afternoon and night with Huiyin & Cherelle! =D Been really really really long since we 3 went out!

We had steamboat buffet at bugis - 鮮得來

There after, headed to fiftyone! =D
Love them b'cus they go with me! hehehe! ((:

& actually saw him at Bugis Mrt. LOL! such a coincidence!

(:

Okay. Gotta be good and stay home now. Limits Limits. But this is not what I want. Sigh!
Sometimes, it's always the negative side being seen. Why didn't you tell me 'bout the positive side?

So well. Maid going home, I'm gonna be the maid at home.
Bye Freedom.

Realized.

2011-03-19T19:51:00.002+08:00

Hello Hello Hello.

Thursday night was an awesome ladies night too(: The night gets more and more high with lots of kuku things happening. Hurhur. It's really fun(:
Seriously epic too.

This is one of the liveband's guitar. He's Erjie & my 'LESTER' LOL! While his name is ordi. HAHA!
Ohyo. Long story. kekeke.

& Happy 21st Birthday vik!

So how's life people? It's been awhile since the last day of school.
I've been enjoying myself(:

& I realized, while enjoying myself, the mood and enjoyment gets better as time gets later. It's like from a happy mood to a even happier mood. From awesome to double double awesome.
& you know what, things gets better.
So does life & anything that happens - it'll get better(:

^.^

Just a step.

2011-03-12T23:27:00.004+08:00

Hello(: Me is back to update me blog. LOL.

This week was a blast too! Celebrated Huiyin's 20th with a doorstep surprise! (: & played MJ till midnight. It was awesome((:

Then next on was D&D for MET/IMT (: It was alright I guess. Umm~

& then off to Phuture. My first time entering a club. The experience was okay at first and it got awesome~ Pretty nice. Umm .
Different place different experiences.

So the trip was with Azlin Yvonne and Yvonne's Bf. In the end left with Azlin & me till the night ends. HAHAHA!

5 shots of tequila, 2 glasses of lychee Martini, 1 glass of tequila pop. & we dance and party all night till my flats pua & my toe nails hurts. LOL! & you simple make friends in the toilet. That's funny.

The guys we met are really protective. That's something nice I guess. Nice to meet nice people there, if you consider them as nice people.

The crowd gets more and more as the time gets later. Seriously. Until you're stuck in one spot and people keeps pushing. 3 fights that night. But nothing to worry, the guys are really protective. HAHA!

Loves(: Simply Simple(:

Siao Ladies Night

2011-03-07T13:47:00.002+08:00

Simply Enjoying my life~
Loves!

Moving On

2011-02-25T23:05:00.003+08:00

Oh hello~
I'm still a happy piece of sweet (:

Little love from all of you keeps me sweet till now, & I know it's not gonna finish soon! There's still plenty of love going around~ HAHA!

Still love~ & I Love you in Blazer~

I'm doing good in moving on.
因為你已是過客, 因為路有些曲折是美的~

yeah, so I got the above sentence from this song. HAHAHA! Meaningful mah!

眼淚笑了(劉力揚)

比想像中更痛
你真的沒回頭
我命令眼淚不許失控
回憶不跟你走
都積在我心中
我就有責任讓它值得被珍重
謝謝你曾讓我難過
謝謝我沒有想太多
當愛情左盼右顧的時候

我眼淚都笑了
誰還想哭呢
再勇敢地站著
找回光和熱
面對你的時候
我不會捨不得
因為你已是過客
因為路有些曲折
是美的

Oh well! I can't wait for Monday! Things are gonna STOP, it's coming to the end of a phase! Lets party~ Hurhur.
& So many upcoming events! Can't wait can't wait(:

So for now, I'm gonna concentrate on the last paper! CONCENTRATE! & put a nice full-stop to my polytechnic life! ((:

The rests are just not important, cause I believe in Faith.
Whatever will be will be(: & I just wanna live life, create a meaningful life. So that when I look back, I'll smile (:

& I realized, mine is nothing as compared to so many other people outside.
There are people that fell so hard on the ground from the peak, there are people that were run down by vehicles, there are people that was smack into their faces, there are so much so much worse cases out there.
& where can I stand to dwell on stupid things? Well, perhaps not that stupid. Lets call it minor injuries. So injuries do recover, just that there might be a scar. Treat it right and the scar would be lighter.

So girl, learn, be optimistic.
There's so much to be happy on. There's so much for you to be thinking for.
(: Part and Parcel of life.

Don't question yourself why, why is it you. Cause you must know, people undergo them before. It's just your turn. & BELIEVE that you'll walk through. (:

Be thankful, cause I'm not having the worse.

As I typed this, I understood better.

& I'm simply smiling now cause of . . . . *hehe* the slightest thing.
(Those who know, knows.)

Start of my 2nd Decade

2011-02-21T22:26:00.002+08:00

I'm so blessed and loved to have so many awesome people around me! This day that I celebrated my 20th, I know that they love me. So much more than I thought. & I'm so glad to have them with me and planning all the fun and surprises and even the little messages and things everyone did. I'm so touched!

I had a blast! I had an awesome 20th! I had so much fun! & it's a unique one! (:

& these made me realized that I don't need you. I live better without you~ & I'm much happier, leading my life. This is a good thing isn't it? (: & I appreciate the way it is now. Because things happened for a reason.

Perhaps because of the things that happened, I learned to treasure and appreciate more. & I simply love these people that loved me for who I am, for me being just me.

yeah~

So the day started with lots of facebook wishes from friends and families. & a phone call from dear Azlin at 12am! ((:

Thank God lesson ended early and smoothly and I enjoyed the rest of the day like it's already HOLIDAY! (:

Met up with Huiyin in the morning for breakfast~ We had Pizza Hut! The whole restaurant has only us. It was a nice catching up and full breakfast. Although it's only awhile, but I appreciate the time you gave me! Thank you for digging out sometime for me! (: LOVE YA!

Up next, headed down to The Cathay to meet the 5 ladies~ The planned Astons and St.Games! Oh by the way! I had Astons for lunch right after I had breakfast at Pizza Hut. That's seriously full! VERY. EXTREMELY. HAHAHAHAHA!
But I love it~ YEAH! Simply because it's the heart that counts! hehe~

Played rock band at St.Games & woo~ Nice experience! I seriously suck at drums! But I love the drums! Just difficult to catch the ball. HAHAHA! So I was playing the guitar most of the time! Hurhur((:

& the people went to buy a cake for me right after lunch! Loves~

((:

& the rock band lasted for 2 hours or so. It's FUN! I shall steal my bro's guitar hero and play with it. HAHAHA!

Then we parted.
Homed.
Rested.

& out at night to 51Jazzy Pub because I had an appointment with my sissies! (:

There's cake for me when I arrived for a couple of minutes. The live band sang the birthday songs & O.M.G! Azlin Yvonne Vikita Wendy were there toooooooOOooo! Surprised me behind & gave me another prezzie!

Know what! They actually planned with my sis! SHOCKED! hahaha!
But I'm really surprisedddddd! (: So happy to see them! hehe.

So the party started~ WOoooooo~

& the girls left early, leaving only Azlin and my sissies and other friends~ HAHA!
So many things that made that night so meaningful, so awesome and so impact-ful. hurhur. Really a blast to end my day.

One of the singer.

Another of the singer.

Love every moment with them~
Love the dancing~
Love the singing~
Love the enjoyment~
Love the atmosphere~
Love the PEOPLE~

Then night ended at 1pm(:

Really Awesome. Up till today, I'm still in the pool of love~

A big thank you to those who wished me, no matter what form - Facebook, text, Msn, Personally, etc - LOVE YOU!
A big thank you to Azlin, Vikita, YvonneTham, Wendy, 2nd sister, 3rd sister for the plans! LOVE AND BIG HUG!
A big thank you to Azlin, Vikita, YvonneTham, Wendy for painting my nails!
A big thank you to Huiyin, YvonneOng, Weishan, Azlin, Vikita, YvonneTham, Wendy, Priska, dou for the Polaroid! HUGSSGSGSGS!
A big thank you to my 3 lovely sisters for the Shirt! MUACKS!
A big thank you to Huiyin for the ala-cart prezzie! MUACKS MUACKS!
A big thank you to 51's crew ~
A big thank you to EVERYONE that plays a part! Without any single one of you, it won't be that awesome anymore! <3

xoxo From the bottom of Candyquek's Heart,
Thank you & I love you all!

p/s : View the album of photos HERE!

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=103000&id=1110341051&l=c5898d8db8

Goodbye Nineteen

2011-02-17T23:44:00.003+08:00

Reflection before nineteen ends.
(:

Be it good or bad, happy or sad ; it's still part of the memories that can't be removed, that can't be changed and it'll always be a part of nineteen.

It's surprisingly fast to see things make its change throughout this short year. From love to hate to immune. From happy to sad to emptiness. From stranger to acquaintance to friends to love. And of course, there are things that remain unchanged.

Well, life. You learn from your lessons.

Recently have been so wavy that I almost can't hang on to the board.
I thank God for the people around me, pulling me, throwing things for me to hold onto.

I teared, I blamed, I ranted, I shut myself, I called upon, I fell.
I hurt & I was hurt - What goes round comes around.
I gave chances & I'm waiting for mine.

It's all about give and take.
It's all about being truthful.
It's all about thinking before you act.
It's all about me.
It's all about life.
It's all about how I think.
It's all about how I tell my heart.
It's all about how I control my life.

& what done cannot be undone.
Move on.
Watch me.

I can lead my life well(:

Rabbit Year 2011

2011-02-12T11:33:00.003+08:00

Be it the western new year or the lunar new year, things aren't well for me.
Like eff man! But well, there's always a time when you're trying to move on. Believe me, it's isn't easy to ask your mind to stop thinking. It's not easy to heal the pain.
And after a week plus of being super down down down, I decided to move on. Moving on because it's to help myself, not because I've got over it. Because deep down, it's still hurting whenever I thought 'bout it. Somehow, thoughts just flew towards the direction. & partly because things have no conclusion. Problems not solved. That's the bad thing. Things are dangling there like some spiders swinging around. Not good. All I can do is to keep myself busy, keep my thoughts to myself, and continue with life. Because I want a better life.

FAITH in FATE or FATE in FAITH.

So well, no matter how down it was, it's still a need to celebrate Lunar New Year~ right.

Having our Therapy~ Simply love them!

It's Reunion Dinner~

LNY Day 1 with the sweeties! (:

Enthusiastic shot with Erjie~

Acting cool because we're taking photo with bun!

Love this photo because it's the COUSINS of Ahma side! Awesome max! Although not full but partially~ COUSINS UNITE. HAHA!

Today is saturday! Another fruitful and packed weekends it's gonna be!
I know because I can see the future. LOL!

Yeah. Heading out later and rushing to 3 different places and sending brudda off to airport.
Gonna miss him! So it's so so so so rushing!

& tomorrow would be Ahma's 86th Birthday~ AWESOME! Can't wait to put all the things in action! Yeah! May things goes well as planned !

HUAT UH! ^^

& so what if I'm missing you, I'm not holding you back.

I Pray

2011-02-05T14:21:00.002+08:00

私が良いだろうと私は、さらにお邪魔されません。私はいつか私たちが良くなることを祈る。

sorry

2011-02-03T02:21:00.001+08:00

really sorry. I mean it, sorry.

BitterSweet Escape

2011-01-31T23:18:00.003+08:00

In between school days, had an awesome chalet with the ladies! & it's so much fun. Really a mini-getaway from everything and we celebrated Yvonne's 20th Birthday in advance~

We all had so much fun. A total of 'bout 30 hours without sleep & had lesson the next day. Super-cui. All of us dozed of in front of our teacher while she's talking and talking. Azlin & me still have the writing position while sleeping. LOL! What's more when we had alcohol. HAHA!

For me, the stomach goes gaga by acting like a washing machine.

That's after the water-war! (: DOUBLE AWESOME~

Preparing for BBQ~

We've got LIGHT STICK!

& YVONNE! WE LOVE YOU~

yeah~ Group photos~

& that night was awesome, to everyone, to me.

So Friday was another long long day. Love the ladies because I know they care. I know they love me. Really glad to have this group of people that entered my life. & little actions made me wanna tear. Really love you girls because you girls never fail to be with me, especially then.

Thanks for staying up with me, another 24 hours without sleep. Even though I know you guys are really tired but you all just wouldn't leave me alone. I love you girls, really.

Another short getaway with Azlin on Sunday.
Tried a couple of places but failed and we ended up in Clinic.

Thanks girl. Really glad that you gave me your time. Just stoning somewhere. & you won't know how much I appreciate that. I know you would say anytime ; I love you at all times love! (:

Simple actions made me so touched. I thank god for you girls in my life.
& I know there are many people that care. Deep down, I know.

Watch me move on. I just need time. Taking step by step.
I'll be alright. Don't worry babes.
Just that it's not easy, doesn't mean it's impossible.

Because all these are simply awful.

There's still so much that I need to learn, so much so much.
& at this stage, I need to learn to drift from expectations. Or well, should i say i should learn to handle disappointment. Either way, I ought to learn.

: j

doubt.

2011-01-30T14:03:00.003+08:00

I realized I'm not able to speak this here.
& Today would be the 4th day straight of drinking.
When is the correct time to get drunk totally?

& you know, it's easy to say.
It's hard to do.

So I said I'll smile. Yes I did try. I tried my best.
But sometimes the path isn't bright enough. You'll feel cold and hard.
& then you don't have the potential smile anymore.

あなたが持っているときはたくさんと言うが、あなたは誰にも有効にすることはできません。しかし1つだけがあなたに失望感を与えます。これを行うためにできることを教えてください。

I'm missing you.

2011-01-17T22:28:00.003+08:00

Oh hello. (:
I'm fine.

HAHA.

So much that ran through my mind, so much that were stored in my heart, so much that I've told myself, so much that I wanted to see your smile, so much that I wanted to hear your voice, so much at I wanted to talk to you, so much so much.
There's too many things going on and on.

& I told myself, just MOVE ON. If I seems to stop, tell me I can't make it. Because that's when I'll pick up everything and tell you, WATCH ME. So be with me and watch me move on.

The sentence that I knew since long ago, "Whatever will be will be." & you know how difficult it is to let your heart understand it? But I made it. After so much silent time, after so much thinking, after so much coffee and after so much songs being played. My heart understood, much clearer as compared to my brain.

Even though I've been wanting, waiting and thinking, I continue walking(:

Well, SMILE.
TO SMILE would be the key thing in my life, at least for now~ HAHA!

& too much hidden meaning in everything. Too much that I can't put them into words and express them freely.

I know I'm expecting, but I don't want to expect anything. I just want to expect Nothing. Nothing. Because only this way, I won't disappoint myself with silly thoughts; I would be much happier if something appears.

I would sigh when I think, I would wonder before I decide, I would tear when I finally saw.
Ohhhhh, irritating!
& you gave me butterflies(:

Just Smile.

2011-01-09T14:11:00.004+08:00

Pretty soon after I set my Resolution for the year of twentyeleven, I was given a test.
1) Be Happy even if I'm at my worse.
2) Smile always so that people would know I'm fine.

It's difficult but I'm trying my best. Really. I listed the situation as the worse, so that any other things would be better. So during this worse state, I tried to be happy. It's difficult, I know. But I'm trying my best. & I'm able to tell you now, it's still hurtful, but I'm better. I smiled and I'll keep smiling to assure and reassure them.

Every time when I'm not occupied with stuff, I would think. Think 'bout the problems.
& you know what? WHEN WORDS FAIL, MUSIC SPEAKS. So much that I wanted to say, but I can't and didn't. This is when music really touches your heart, your soul.

I know, I understand, I feel, I saw, I realized.
& I learned.

The reality, The true colours, The point of view.

I don't blame for things to turn into this situation, because that's your point of view. Something in which I've no ability to change, yours especially. When one mentality is set, there's very little chance that it would be changed. & this is why I let you be.
So do I have my point-of-view. Since 2 P.O.V can't meet, I don't see a point in continuing. Not because you're right. Even though I felt so indignant, I chose to stay cool.

& know what? I actually see how professional you are in handling problems.

On the other hand, I thank the problems for rising. Because through this, I grew.
And most importantly, I know who really care. & I really appreciate that.

Really glad to have my 3 sisters with me, listening and advising. Really glad to have Azlin with me all the time & of course the ladies for the care. Plus M.B. really glad that you're willing to listen. Really deeply appreciated.

Thank you for being there, thank you for the time, thank you for the words, thank you for the comfort, thank you for the effort, thank you for the concern, thank you for being there at my lowest.

& I'm really really really touched and happy and blessed to have Erjie bringing me for a little getaway. Thank you sis. Thanks for the Joker's Pub & LMC trips when I didn't wanted to go home, Steamboat, Sim ming rd. & thanks for the company.

Thank you because I really needed it.

& hey, I'm actually glad that you almost made my world upside down. But HAHA, you failed. But anyway, thank you. Because I could see clearly how lucky I am, and I'm contented.
So much that I wanted to remove this memories. But well, impossible. So I'm putting it behind and moving on. & I'm doing good. WATCH ME.

I see how little words can really touch your heart and soul.

&&& I LOVE YOU ALL! (:

My Resolution

2011-01-03T21:41:00.000+08:00

Twenty Eleven

2011-01-02T01:16:00.003+08:00

Aren't it amazing? We stepped into 2011 from 2010 in just 1 second.
Oh well, just a thought that came in while counting down yesterday! HAHA!

Okay, not the timings a bit screwed. LOL! I slept at new year's 5am. woke up on the same day and continue enjoying the first day of 2011. Hurhur.

More photos HERE ! CLICK ME!

& I'm really happy to end 2010 in such a awesome manner and to welcome 2011 with such awesome clique! (: YEAH! I LOVE ALL THE SIAO PEOPLE! HAHAHA!
We were at 51 for our countdown! (: What 'bout you?

AWESOME! (: & down to 28's LMC for more fun! hurhur.
But the problems there damn epic! Can't stop laughing at all the things that happened. hurhur.

seriously damn classic luh! Haiyo. On lights donno how many times. HAHA! DOOR DROP some more. tsktsk. PRO TO THE MAX.

& went out to fulfill my carbonara and cheesefries cravings, in the end NONE. None. All sold out. SADDED. So only normal fries. LOL!

The night ended with waiting when I initially wanted it to be a 'thinking' time.
Yes, to think and let the thoughts run through. To open up my hands.
Disappointments never fail to come near me.
The thickness really makes me feel irritating, yes I think I'm irritating.

Oh well ~ LIFE.

Anyway, had some shopping time with family. Headed IKEA & BUKIT TIMAH ! Woo~
Had Dinner-supper with Sissies and friends at BEDOK. & I'm home 2 hours ago!

You seems to understand but no, deep down you don't. You have your own dictionary. And you used the reasons I gave, in which u accepted, to throw back at me without any worth. Priceless. Worthless. You'll never listen.

Well, my 01-01-11 was full of emotions. Many different kinds, to prepare me for my upcoming 364 days.
Oh, Hang on Candy.

To close chapter 2010

2010-12-31T00:01:00.003+08:00

2010 is coming to an end! YES. THIS IS FAST.

Actually, I need to recall what I've done for the past 12 months! It's like so mixed up. HAHA!
Let me see huh~

I've been doing what a NINETEEN year old should. I mean, not should. But at least, enjoying how a typical 19 is enjoying. I've stepped into places which I thought I would never enter.
Well, simply because I wanna live life as it is, do what the age should do.
No regrets! (:

I went Japan without my FAMILY. Really a great experience for the year. A short 5 days trip, I felt like I've grown up. I felt that I'm really lifting up the word LIFE. It's very fruitful, meaningful. I've met many people through the trip. I've a family bond at Japan - Yamashita-san (:

Social circle expanded and it's awesome!

I'm proud to say that I'm part of NDP2010! I truly enjoyed myself and the company! AWESOME PEOPLE! (:

Major Project ! I'm really happy that things are done, although my part went sucky, I think. I've learned so many things!

& There's AHBOY! (: (: (: Hurhur. Azlin & Yvonne will agree with me! HAHA!

This year's emotions was full of ups and downs. Really happy, really sad, really angry, really disappointed. But I give thanks for all these that happened, even at the very end of the year. These things really bring me to a higher level, in which I see much more than anyone else. I've overcome many and I'm proud of myself because I think I've been doing good. Although I do grumble, I do nag, I do complain.
Candy wanna thank all that were there for me, thank those that were there listening.

& I wanna thank every single one of you. Thanks all for being part of my life, thanks for all the little things, thanks for the very least, thanks for the best, thanks for the worse, thanks for the joy, thanks for the memories, thanks for all that happened.

It's really a fruitful year and I've walked this year with no regrets! It is really nice to look through the things you've did. Go do yours! (:

Deep in me, to the people who left my life, I miss you, so much.

Be it you or you or you, my heart do hurt. & I hope you do treasure.
& I do want to be treasured, sincerely.
I appreciate you, & I do hope you appreciate me too.

Candyq Love You.

Dumb.

2010-12-30T20:21:00.001+08:00

to believe.

New piece.

2010-12-29T01:10:00.001+08:00

寂寞寂寞就好

2010-12-28T22:40:00.001+08:00

寂寞寂寞就好

还是原来那个我
不过撂掉几公升泪所以变瘦
对着镜子我承诺
迟早我会换这张脸应对笑容
不算什么爱错就爱错
早点认错早一点解脱
我寂寞寂寞就好
这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到
受不了伤到快疯掉
死不了就还好

我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会笨到
忘不了赖着不放掉
人本来就寂寞的
借来的都该还掉
我总会把你戒掉

还是原来那个你
是我自己做梦你又改变什么
再多的爱也没用
每个人有每个人的业障因果
会有什么什么都没有
早点看破才看的见以后

我寂寞寂寞就好
这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到
受不了伤到快疯掉
死不了就还好

我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会笨到
忘不了赖着不放掉
人本来就寂寞的
我总会把你戒掉

My Christmas

2010-12-25T21:49:00.002+08:00

Hey! Merry Christmas people!
So how have your Christmas been? Since it's almost over. well, in 'bout 2 hours more to the end of 2010 Christmas!

Christmas' Eve seemed more like Christmas to me as compared to the actual day itself.
Headed to Sister Angela's house for a mini Christmas gathering among her friends and few of us. & we had exchanged gifts! I got myself a bottle of wine. LOL! Thereafter headed down to 28's LMC for some party with Second Sis & her friends. The night was awesome.

Just some bothering things that popped up. Quite shitty but overall it's well.

The company was awesome! =D Didn't managed to eat carbonara! ): "SADDED"
HAHA! But had cheese-fries! (:

Now I want to go drink! Not addicted, but just not in the mood to be normal. Because I'm feeling so _______ . I don't know. So many problems. Unsolved problems. Floating problems. Loitering around. Like shit. Seriously.

Very irritated, very pissed, very bothered, very helpless, very uncertain, very angry, speechless.

Where are you when I needed you? I thought I would be able to see you, but no I didn't.
Where are you?
Fine, just go.

LIFE . Tell me what is it, thought I already know what it is. But let me tell you, when you're in this state, whatever you know doesn't apply.

So in conclusion, this is my christmas for year 2010.

White Christmas, Teary Christmas, a Christmas without

Reflection~

2010-12-22T14:05:00.002+08:00

Reflection & Introspection
where have I reached in my relationship & emotional life in general.

At this point of stage in life, I hope to see a change of course. But things doesn't always go in your way. But I think I've been living life well, trying to minimize the "regrets". I've been thinking a lot all the time, drifting away. But hey, I think they're useful in in building your thoughts. They strengthen and train your ability in controlling yourself. Because you know, it's not easy to change a mindset. It's not easy to change a thinking, not easy to change a feeling. & it's not easy to realize the real thoughts and feelings.

& it's time to plan my route. The route which leads me to the future.
What am I gonna be as next? Where am I heading next? What am I going to do next?
Questions and questions popping up, but answers are just so surface. It's gonna be the end of 3.2 in a couple of months time. What am I going to do? What are the procedures? I'm uncertain ~ Good.

Well, that's the basic life.

I think I'm coping well with social life (: I've met many people and getting closer. Although some left and some came and some faded and some still remain very strong. No matter what, i'm grateful. Grateful for all that happened and the experiences that led me to the me now.

Emotionally, um~
More emotions came to me. Inside me. Unspoken.
Congrats to those who heard me saying them luh! hahaha! Cause I don't really say it unless I have a feeling for them. Cause when I say it, I hope you feel me. If not I felt stupid because you don't feel me and you'll think that it's nonsense! =D

It takes time to let me open up to you. So be patience with me (:

I felt like I'm in a dilemma!
You won't understand but it is.

& I'm glad to experience the life a 19th should live.
AWESOME.

Oh I'm sorry if you don't understand. Cause I don't have a outline to follow.
Randomness.

(: 冬至节快乐!

Wonders

2010-12-21T14:53:00.004+08:00

I feel the possible, letting go of the impossible.
But sad to say the possible turns impossible gradually.
It's like being fooled, somehow.

Sometimes I don't believe and I hang on. But I'm suffocating.
Waited, but everything faded.

In life, how many times do each person has to undergo all these?
Is there any fair amount? I wonder.

LIFE, I have to find the meaning.

& when there's no communication, everything can turn from bad to worse.
Trust is a very powerful thing. It either brings everything to almost perfect or let everything goes flat. It's fragile.
When there's no trust, no communication, it's just your point of view, there goes.

Oh just a point of view.

(:

Who has a bb pin? TELL ME.

If I really am . . .

2010-12-20T11:06:00.002+08:00

Weekends were so awesome that its really a good start of my holidays! (:
Been chilling with sis at 51 then to 28 for more chilling and some carbonara! It's yummy. But um~ that timing is really sinful. HAHA!

Had 2 days straight of steamboat buffet & now, I'm quite scare of it already! I feel the fats coming out. SHYT. So sad.

But the buffets were awesome! plus points with the people I'm eating with (: heh heh (:

phewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww~

HAHA!

Okay anyway, I'm really glad to meet this company of Erjie. They're awesome people. They really bring more fun to my life! (:

Oh well, maybe you're not interested. But that's my life.
& I'm loving it.

& I SERIOUSLY DON'T FEEL LIKE WORKING ALREADY! Not because I don't want to work, but because of the "REWARDS" I'm getting. It's so shitty.

Invisible Escape

2010-12-15T11:13:00.002+08:00

Hello peeps. Today marks the end of term 3 of year 3 ! Meaning it's my holidays now! It really feels sucky to have a project tagging you during the time when you're suppose to rest and have some fun.
Oh man. & damn that the project is suck-ish. I don't know how to do. Plus the project has to be done in school because we've got no equipments. la. la. la.

So I'm heading back to school later ):

I'm looking forward to evening later! Sissies coming over for the event "Cupcakes Gathering" HAHAHA! ( :

You know what? I'm really glad that in this life of mine, I've met so many awesome people. Even the acquaintances, friends of friends or some other random people. Every single one of you.

& I'm really grateful that at the points in life when I needed someone, there's always someone for me.

( :

Just appreciating every single thing that are happening.

Lesser Butterflies!

2010-12-11T18:53:00.002+08:00

Oh hello. I can't believe I said YES. I immediately regretted after saying it.
Yeah, know what? I said yes to go back to work later at 9pm. WTF. I was home couple of hours ago after a 8 hours shift. Almost died there. Seriously.

My throat almost dries up. My leg almost broke half.

So yes, I have to return to work later ): Boo!

往往你想要的都不會有。
我學會了偶像劇裡的情景，是夢幻的.
現實是殘酷的，不會有偶像劇的情景
但我還會抱著一絲絲的希望，　
因為如果真的實現了，那會是最美麗最珍貴的。
那一絲絲的念頭，會實現嗎？

Butterflies

2010-12-09T20:38:00.002+08:00

You cannot clearly see what's coming up, but you know that this is a turning point in your life. The choices you make now can significantly impact your future. Acknowledging your need for self-expression and independence is important, but so is listening to your intuition, even if its message is more cautious and conservative than you wish. Success depends upon your ability to balance a risky plan with sensible actions.

by : Twittascope

Anyway, things suddenly turns cold.

Behind the Scene

2010-12-07T22:34:00.002+08:00

Oh hello. Tomorrow is Wednesday, meaning it's a no school day but work day!
Seriously pissed by the A.M. Shyt it. Very irritated. Now I know how good the previous one is. Ohwell. Everything needs to be compared with to see the contrast, isn't it?

Retarded.

Oh on a side note, CANON called me just now! And the thing is, they're going to repair my camera! HAHA! They said it's the last warranty repair! LOL! By the way, my warranty just passed by 6days. LOL! So I'm lucky! (:(:

Wonder how is it going . .

告訴我愛不但行別害怕 .

OMG. I wanna go SING ! Anyone?!

Barely the surface.

Awesome Friday!

2010-12-04T22:36:00.004+08:00

Friday was so fun! Celebrated Erjie's Birthday with a simple delivery dinner at her place! Sisters and friends (: Cakes and the montage-showing! Yeah! She teared. (:(:

Late at night, headed down to Golden Mile's Thai Disco to meet with other friends of my sis! First time to Thai Disco, First time with Sis and her friends, First time with Brother and her gf! Such a awesome combination and BOMB! AWESOME.

Party ends around 2 plus in the morning with brother and sally(Sis friend) drunk. Some others were damn high already. LOL! What a nice experience huh.

& this cab uncle pissed brother, his Gf and me off. Seriously fuck off. Don't pick up this driver job please, just go and sweep the floor. FUCK. Citycab 8801 ! DAMN.

Besides that, everything was so FUN! Seriously! Drank quite a lot and lucky! No itch this time. Just a little sore. (: & The music there was awesome too. & It's fucking uncomfortable to stand around such a huge speaker. Seriously, I can feel my throat vibrating, and some wind.

Sister's friends are so funny. Can't explain further but just, they're funny. Comfortable mixing around with them.

I'm simply so glad that Erjie enjoyed(:

Photos on FACEBOOK! (: PART I & PART II !

Peacefulness

2010-11-26T18:25:00.004+08:00

Japan Trip Day 1 (:

Visited 四马路 today with the girls(: It's the first time that we went there together! Awesome(:
Everything would be save and sound and peaceful in mind and heart.
I so wanna return there again, soon i think.

Hit town after that. Lunch and walked a bit. & OH! I wanna buy heels luh!

Anyway, 55$ to repair the stripe of my Adidas watch! Not worth right? SHYT.

Aftermath, we headed Hougang to pray again(:(:
Omgz! Azlin scare me with stories on our way there. She don't mean to, but OMGzzzzzz! Hear already sian man ! Gahhh!

Sigh):

But well, I believe everything gonna be fine. I just have to stop scaring myself and believe that it's nothing! (:

I'm not pretty.

2010-11-24T00:38:00.001+08:00

I know that.

Goodnight, world. Goodnight, loves. Goodnight to you.

愛笑的眼淚

2010-11-23T18:09:00.005+08:00

Meeting with the usual old clique. It's really awesome to meet them!

& on the same day, I've got a ride home by a bmw sports car!
(那里可能)-Inside joke! hahahahaha!

This was on Sunday, newly wed. ((:

2 things down. tomorrow another. the day after another.

I can't wait for holidays. Although school's kindda slack. But i'm not use to the fact that there's quizzes and tests coming up. Can't get my butt to sit down and study like how I used to be.
Oh well~

It's so much more today. & I love how it is.

Anyway, going to meet Chrystal now! (: Dih-neh.
& life is so fragile.

Getting better(:

2010-11-13T11:01:00.002+08:00

"Cleo's 4 years old Birthday celebration in school"

It has been 2 days since I returned. Well. Getting better. The first day was alright but I consider it as horrible. LOL! It really drained my energy. Surprisingly, the 2nd day wasn't that bad. I still have the strength to use my lappy when I'm home. hurhur. So that shows everything huh. Heh heh . .

The place is okay, just aren't that flexible I supposed. Can't understand why they need to be so straight and step by step. tsktsk.

Although I'm feeling so tired after school + work, I find it worth it. At least my life is not wasted. Just hope I can balance well. Just gotta sort out my Major Project now! & December would be a more relaxing month as compared to now.

Felt so helpless with projects now. ): HELP ME, but no answer.
Oh well~

I'm going to hit town again later. Hopefully the repairing of my watches are not costly(:(:(:
pray hard. hurhur.

Umm~ 27th!
yeah~

加油 ^_^

2010-11-10T21:04:00.005+08:00

Excited 'bout tomorrow! Hopefully everything turns out well(:

PR3 today was fine! ((: Hopefully TanCL can judge our project during the actual judging(: Like that should be damn fine! hurhur. Just damn the stupid amazon for changing it's review API. damn damn damn. Now gotta find another way to do the review section! Gonna crack brain again!! )):
Stupid things always come at stupid timings.

Oh well~ Oh well~ Oh well~
I'm so happy today. I won't tell you why! HEH HEH =D
But I'm so happy!! ((:

I'm so 紧张 about tomorrow ! Umm~
& Supports are the best encouragement. ((:
yeah to income!　哈哈！

Ah man, sick. Caught a cold. ):

Floating.

2010-11-09T16:36:00.002+08:00

Hello. I just did something and I felt so bothered.
HAHA!
I went for an interview and I suddenly thought it was a rush choice. Am I doing the correct thing? Well, although it's the same thing, but it's a new environment. Ummm~ I hope I can do well. But but but. Am I able to cope with all the things I'm undergoing now? Not very sure leh. Ummmm~

Just hope I can get use to it luh hor.
Abit better now. HAHA! This is still the space that allows me to rant and feel much better. Hurhur ((:

Oh well~ Because of money, I will. JIAYOU CANDY!

& I'm on MC today. Cold, said the doctor. ): Ohwelllllllll~
I supposed to do my tutorials and learn my japanese. But umm, I didn't.
At least I started doing the MP'S poster and flyer. ((: To be handed up soon! gahhh~

& tomorrow need to step into school for PR3 !! Oh man. Glad to hear it's done. (: Just the firming part and the hardware design part. YES! AWESOME!

Actually, I'm quite excited ! Excited to see how am I able to fill my time with the stuff I'm having on hand now. ((:

Umm, anyway, sissies coming up later ! Nieces coming up later. Fetching baby nephew later! AWESOME! Love all these people that god gave me. AWESOME ((:

LOVE THEM ALL.

& I really do miss my friends a lot, a lot. Seeing them busying with their life make me feels like I'm doing nothing. But NO! I'm doing something already! SOON! ((: So we'll meet one day when everyone is available.

I've been thinking about my future. Future as in after polytechnic. after I graduate, what am I supposed to do. No guidelines. Sigh. I've to keep searching.

I've got so much so much to say ..................................

Buhbye.

結果卻慢慢的往下掉

2010-11-01T21:51:00.003+08:00

It's November, It's week 2 of semester 3.2 .

Guess work will be slowly coming in. Final judging in 'bout 3 weeks time. Ohhhhhh~ I've so many things to get going! So much that I wanted to do, but I couldn't find a way for all of them. Planning fails. Shyt.

At this stage, I really get to see how fragile life can be.
& yes. Everyone is going to die and everyone is aware of it. But who is making a difference?
I so want to make a difference. But I can't think through. I want a break through.
It's another time consuming stuff to do - think.

Well , I also know that I've been holding on real tight. I know it's not really right. But why aren't I lessening the tightness of the grip? Sigh. It's not only 1 thing, it's many things.
But I promise I'll try.

So much confidence that I had. Thinking that we've got such little communication, everything is gonna be normal, no climax, everything is gonna be back to square one, etc etc. Umm, guess I think too highly of myself. Just one word from you plus a little action can break through all my effort.

Oh well.

I jumped, but you're still hesitating.

那始終不是我的. 那我的呢?

Oneway Flyaway

2010-10-25T19:58:00.003+08:00

School started this afternoon for me! (: So far it's doesn't feel true. I feels like I'm still in my sweet escape.

Woke up and saw the surprise email from Yamashita-san . Glad to hear they received our surprised parcel . heh heh! AWESOME. Prompt delivery luh! Glad (:

Can't wait to hear more from them! ((:

So it's just 3 hours school today. Couldn't get on track yet.

This holidays have been a blast for me! So much for me to put them into words, so much that I couldn't express how I felt and how I'm feeling. It's awesome! ((: Like what Huiyin said, 轟轟烈烈!

Bring me to another place, where we can both flyaway.
Just one way, so everything would stay.

Too much to take in.

2010-10-20T16:02:00.002+08:00

It has been a week since I was back home. So many things had happened & time is limited for me to digest everything. The changes of happiness, the changes of fun, the changes people, the changes in mood, the sudden news, the sudden lost and so much so much.

It's like I didn't sleep for the past 1 week that everything seems to happen continuously.

This time round, I see that life can be so fragile. So changeable.
It's complicated. To take things lightly is right but wrong at the same time. To take things to heart is wrong but right at the same time.

Sigh.

Complicated.

& I see the regrets in people's eyes, in people's heart. The things we did is never enough to fulfill the lost. It's always regrets and more regrets. When people say, I've did my best and I don't regret, how many actually hold it up high and really mean it? Well, I can tell you, there's always something you can find to tell yourself that you can do better. Even when you've already did your best before.

I will always miss you like everyone will. I will always remember the smile that you always give. I will always remember you, as the one who cares. I will never forget you, never.

Sweetest Fruitful Fullest

2010-10-15T00:06:00.004+08:00

Hello space! I'm back from Japan since Tuesday and I've slept 16hours after that . And Ummm. I think I shall update you guys a bit before heading to bed.

Before leaving for Japan, my family had a mini celebration at home for my Daddy! Because this year, on his birthday, his daughter, me, would be at Japan enjoying herself and almost totally forgotten 'bout Singapore. HAHAHA!

Aww dad, I still love you! ((:

You know how much I miss my home-stay family there? I miss them like I've left them for Singapore. It's like they make me feel so home when I stayed in Japan! Yamashita family is awesome! Super awesome. It took up most of the percentages of why I feel like staying in Japan and not come back.

Another reason why I don't wanna return is the people I've met in the trip! Awesome night life together and I'm so happy! too happy!
Can't believe the first time was in Japan! ((: It's fun and I'm liking it. Just at the correct timing, correct place with the correct people. ((:

& there are many experiences that you guys can't understand even if I explain further. Too much to say with such little words. Totally not enough, totally too much fun!

LOVE the way it is. LOVE the way it happens. LOVE the way it's continuing. Simply LOVE ((:

I don't know how to upload the 8GB worth of memories to facebook or here. Seriously got no idea. HAHAHA! Ummmm~ I shall slowly slowly take my time. I've got so much to do before the feelings fade away, before time stops and return to track. Too much too much to do.

& what's better to wake up with an Email from Yamashita family?
Smile through the day! & tomorrow would be a day to wooooo~ appreciation! ((:

Anyway, weird people and different kinds of people. LIFE.

Oh well, just to glad to make full use of my time today! So glad and now I'm so lucky, I'm so blessed, I'm so happy, I'm so active! OMGOMG! I love you! hurhur.
Awesome day!!! ((:

& you know what? I really appreciate what I'm getting now because I'm feeling really lucky. I see the change in life after meeting awesome people. You know if I'm to continue with the old life, I would be staying in the wild now. Totally isolated from the outside world. I'm now feeling so bless. Blessed with all the awesome wonderful people around me. Really appreciate the chances given to me. ((:

P/S : Happy Birthday Sister Angela ((:

Sweet Escape

2010-10-06T12:17:00.003+08:00

In 12 hours and 43 minutes time, I'll be sitting on the plane and off to my real holidays! So I thought I should update this space of mine before I go. hurhur.

I'm really damn excited luh! This is my first trip with the school, first trip with my friends, first trip by myself! OMGOMGZZZ! F I R S T !! EXCITED! Mad happy.

Anyway, the past weeks have been a relaxing and enjoying holiday ! I've got my rest, I've got my shopping trip & I've got my fun! ((:

This was last Wednesday with the girls! Met up with Wendy after our meeting in school & after Wendy's work! ((: Di-neh. It was real fun together with them luh! The can't stop laughing moments and stupidity moments are really OOO-SOME. haha!

This was the Kbox trip with sisters and their NF's colleagues! First trip there with Baby Carrick too! Ahahaa!
Know what! It's the 2nd time kbox surprised me with their rooms! This room is AWESOME TO THE MAX! It's all sofa-ed! WAKAO! AWESOME LUH!

& this was Saturday MORNING! Dad Dyan and I headed to the floating platform for brudda's POP! ((: The whatever roar and songs are damn hilarious. HAHA! Anyway! It's my first time stepping into the floating platform! heh heh!

& weeee~ BABY CARRICK! ADORABLE RIGHT! ((:

Know what! I've been fighting with the germs and bacterias that's conquering my throat and nose! Shyt them! Boo! Damn them because they visited before my trip! SHYT IT! So I've been pouring medicine and swallowing tablets and sleeping throughout the past few days.

Haha! Glad to say I'm feeling better now! & all ready to fly! ((:

ahhahahahaaa! Mad excited!

Gonna celebrate daddy's birthday tonight before flying! He'll be damn sad this time because I'm away from him during his birthday! ): hurhur!

Oh & I think I spent a bomb on the things for the trip ! hahaha! It's like I'm touring in Singapore and leaving here BACK to Japan. HAHAHA! LIKE mad luh! buy buy buy! hurhur. But I'm loving it. So now that I'm broke. really broke.

There are gonna be more exciting events coming up when I'm back in town again! Gonna enjoy the last 3 weeks of holidays and back on track for my final dash! Woosh! Fast or what! I'm at my last journey for tertiary already! woo~

Okay I'm wondering what's for dinner tonight and I'm so happy !
Happy that I'm flying, Happy that I'm seeing my sweeties and cuties before I leave, Happy to be together as a family, Happy to know little things. Happy. Just happy. WHAHAAAAA!

Actually it's really easy to be happy . You choose the way. I'm happy with the way I am now. Simple enough because I think I've gone through the worse, i mean i feel like i've gone through the worse. So just simple things will make me smile (:
((:

I'll miss you tho.

& it's only another 12 hours.

Left Right Mood.

2010-09-23T23:24:00.002+08:00

Oh well. Slacked at home the whole of today.
Everything seems fine until hours back. My mind has been invaded with thoughts plus a pinch of worried. I don't know why but my brain said so. Maybe too many things to do tomorrow.

I'm meeting the girls tomorrow! Another round of food at Jalankayu(:

Hopefully when I'm back, everything would be easier.
Hopefully I won't be facing so much problem again.
I hope.

Houkay. I'm gonna watch some shows.
& I think I'm gonna be sick! Shyt! No way!

More updates soon (((((:

中秋節快樂!

2010-09-22T13:26:00.002+08:00

Update again! (: Be happy.

I was out with breadface yesterday! HAHA! I don't know why I'm calling her that suddenly, but well! YEAHYEAH! My lovely sister.

It's always such a long time since we last met to like go gaga together. Always the happiness. FUN!

Glad to buy the things I wanted ! (: AWESOME MAX!
& woooooooo~ BOMB to my pocket. HAHA! ((:

WELL WELL WELL! Guess what! I'm so excited ! YEAHYEAH!

Anyway, the kids and sissies and relatives coming to my place tonight to see the moon together. LOL! yeahyeahyeah! I'm meeting baby tooooooo~ WEEEEEEEEEEE~ EXCITED!

Mooncake!

2010-09-22T00:07:00.002+08:00

AH HA! Today is the day to eat mooncake and drink some tea and see the moon! It's so pretty I'm gonna die! HAHAHAHA! Houkayyyyyyy!
The moon is really very pretty! Especially during midnight, it shines brightly! & it's like orange in colour! Awesome. If you have a chance, see it. I don't know why, but I've been able to see the moon pretty often this year! YEAHYEAH! (:(:(:

Anyway! This week is more of a rest week? Last week was really chiong-ing! Like you know, the animals that got out of the zoo, so long for freedom. So when they're out, they go everywhere like nobody business, do anything like nobody cares! hurhur!
It's tired but worth it. I'm broke but worth it. AWESOME TO THE MAX!

Last week spent a lot on FOOD! Seriously! Thank God I didn't gain weight till nobody business. Still in a acceptable range. LOL! yaluhyaluh! I know right, can continue to decrease. But wakao, the food so nice, how to resists. HAHAHA!

Celebrated in advance Azlin's 19th Birthday! (: NICE ONE! Although it's simple but the fun and laughter really made the whole day seems so "expensive". You get me? LOL! Like ya. It's really the people around you that matters. Even doing the most cheapo thing, it's still as awesome as ever. HAHA! ((:

OH WELL! ANYWAY, TODAY IS THE DAY! ((:

Houwell ~ Glad to meet the people last week.
Nice to know they're doing fine. Even though still got yvonne eric sunny didn't meet up yet!!! GAHGAHGAH! TIME TIME TIME! But they should be doing fine (: I think all 3 of them need more rest. Hurhur. WELL! I MISS YOU GUYS LUH!

Went SukiSushi for buffet and off to kbox.
Exactly what was done the last time, remember? HAHA! But who cares when it's FUN! RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT!?

& there's this day last week that YvonneTham & WendyTan & I headed to Jalan Kayu for PRATA and TAUHUEY! FAB MAN!

How was your weekends? Mine was familyish ((:
First time doing out with baby carrick on Saturday noon(: YEAH to full month. hurhur. Nanny of 2 girls at night. Swimming with them on Sunday afternoon. Thank the sun for the company (: Love it. & dinner with daddy and relatives (:

MORE UPDATES SOON ((:
yeahyeah((:

痛心的是你那不在乎的眼神和你那什麼都不說的心態.

you you you.

2010-09-16T00:11:00.002+08:00

So the first 3 days of fun with the girls ended ! More to come tho! But this 3 days was a blast! Broke, fat, fun, tired, sleepy, musclepain . woo~

Work was awesome ! It's the going-to-work part that sucks the most. Especially when you gotta end your shopping time and head to work. gahgahgah.

hah!

I still can't get over the trying-to-grab-a-wanting-to-fall-precious-thing feeling! Like WTH! It really gives me a shock! much. It's like since I broke 2 champagne glasses at work yesterday, I got that feeling until now! LIKE SHYT. HAHAH! But I laughed at it.

Glad to see Azlin smiling happily today (:
Photos on Facebook! ((:

ANDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!
I'm meeting the oldise but awesome people tomorrow!
FOOD AGAIN. I feel really fat. But I'm hungry now. But I am guilty of what I've consumed. But everyday also must eat mah. But later eat too much. But eeyer.
Irony.
But what's most important is I'm meeting the people! They are the food! hahahaahhahaa!
Anyway, SALMON here I come(:

& I'm so excited ! Something is gonna come . I'm packing and I'm waiting and I'm EXCITED!
weeeeee~

I miss you.

Missing End.

2010-09-09T22:28:00.002+08:00

When the clock strikes 5.30pm today, it marks the end of this long period of 21 weeks of MP-SIP. WOW seriously. Seriously WOW. Hah! Houkay Houkay!

You know how awesome today was !
Every was in such a unexpected situation, yet this can be so nice!

The smile in the morning makes everything started so well. Next was the coincidence in the lift. Then the awkward silence was broke off by the first conversation! & there goes with more conversation when the system had some problem & the almost goodbye smile. Plus those little listening of our conversation that was follow by the secret smile! Then it was the patience waiting. The ending prank that everyone was laughing at. Everything ended with the buhbye.

I'm missing it already! ummm~
& this is what I call premium! yeahyeah.

Houkayyyyyyyy . Maybe you won't understand. WAHAHHA!
But it really wrapped this whole MP-SIP journey so well so well. (: (:

Now! A public holiday to open the door to HOLIDAYS! Awesome or what!
(: Gonna prepare for trip! Gonna prepare for celebrations!

yeahyeahyeah.

& just when I was back from dinner with the rawrrr girls, a mini gathering waiting for me with a cup of rosemount. Awesome MAX right!
09th September 2010 - A day I'll always remember ((:

Reality is so sweet that I wouldn't wanna let the feeling fade off while I'm asleep!

Brightest Star

2010-09-04T19:18:00.003+08:00

What a Saturday .

I'm waiting for dinner to be serve ! I smell chicken wings, beehoon, prawn and some more yummy stuff. Brother is leaving to book-in in awhile! We're having dinner together~ Yummy food!
Gah! I think the weighing machine will never lie to me! ) :

Hah!

I've got to keep my window on Microsoft Word to write my SIP report! Gah gah!
I can't help but to tune to other windows! Shyt!
I got to start! Dateline COMING! S H Y T ! Houkays. I shall do it after dinner! At least a start luh! If not it's gonna drag longer. SHYT SHYT.

& you know what! I've so many kinds of feeling in me at one single time! What is this! How to survive? I think I might suffocate!

你的眼神牽動我的靈魂,
你的笑容溫暖我的世界.

It's September!

2010-09-03T20:07:00.003+08:00

Yes! September! It's so so so fast !
Next week would mark the last week of M-P-S-I-P ! Awesome? Actually, I feel kinda reluctant. But I do want it to end. Gah! It's really not your decision thing. Irony I know. But well, nothing goes according to what you want. I want the fun and laughter and slacking and chatting and talking and everything fun with the girls! But I don't want the projects and the things that made me feel duper low in mood.

Another 4 school days. Another 3.5 days of lucks left to the expiry date.
I'm missing premium already! ahhh~ Today is such a low thing. Felt bad. bad. bad. But well, hopefully i'm wrong, thinking too much. *guilty* ):
*stop thinking that way Candy! It's not in the correct path!*
O'well, that's what premium is all about isn't it ?

Bonus . I'm picking it up, handling it good.

Say "ahboy" and I'll smile instantly((:

As much as I wanted to know, I regretted after knowing. & it's not the first time. Stupid or what?

Anyways, I've been wanting to write since Tuesday. But time holds me back.
Hmmm . . I think I've been doing fine. Although it cuts and hurt, but it's much better I supposed?

Why is what I asked myself.
To search and to not look is what I do.
Wanting to speak but to shut myself is what I'm doing.
Feeling hurt but to put on a smile.
Using your smile to make my day.
So pissed yet to act like I'm okay.
Wanted to vent my angers and sadness yet I can't.
The tears that went in instead.

Seriously not easy. Numb.
How well can it go when you have to make use of others to make you smile?
How nice can it be when things aren't your expected?
How happy can you be from the inside when you're being too greedy?

Candy, please don't be greedy. It's not gonna help. Treat it as a bonus. BONUS.
& yes, I got it. I'm trying my best.

歌曲：转动
歌手：林俊杰
专辑：100 天

还来不及看你最腼腆的笑容
任性的时间却不肯停止转动
总在落幕后才学会如何珍重

他们总爱流言蜚语言不由衷
突然我明白你有多孤独惶恐
泪水淹没了爱要在那里降落

你让真爱转动让自己不停梦
身在其中绕成圆周悲欢都全被你包容
你让灵魂转动用爱燃烧夜空
无可取代的你在我心目中
因为你让生命感动

所谓整个世界原来只是你我
也许生命只有两个简单选择
谁来当观众谁在剧情中呜~

渺小的我因为你而勇敢的梦
但愿我能对着你说你多独特
就在不言中感谢你一路陪我

你让真爱转动让自己不停梦
身在其中绕成圆周悲欢都全被你包容
你让灵魂转动用爱燃烧夜空
无可取代的你在我心目中
因为你让生命感动
wu.. oh... yeah~~ oh......

你让真爱转动让自己不停梦
身在其中绕成圆周悲欢都全被你包容
你让真爱转动......oh......
wu...yeah..........
因为你让生命感动

无可取代的你在我心目中
因为你让生命感动

I thank the girls for everything. Without you girls, this semester wouldn't be that lively and happy! Awesome days with you girls and more to come right! ((: Loves!

a break time.

2010-08-27T18:17:00.003+08:00

houyeys. It's friday today & I'm happy today.
Just simple things that made me smile despite you treating me the opposite. Well, I smiled in the end with the feeling that was lost. & I'm glad it's back.

Hopefully it last me through weekends for a better week ahead.

With all the "facts" given and all the "evidences" you show, I'm having a clearer picture now. Even though you make me felt useless, stupid, hurt or whatever, Thank you.

I'm gonna think through, I'm gonna know what I want.
I'm stepping back to see much more than you could.
Somehow, I think i'm letting you go.
Maybe I'm tired, maybe I'm afraid, maybe I'm just restless.
Seeing your backview isn't a bad thing at all, I'm stepping back, I'm stopping to see you walk on & I'll start walking another route. Perhaps we'll meet again, perhaps i'll run up to you, perhaps i'll turn back, perhaps i'll just walk pass you.

Whatever it is, I'm smiling.
For the sake of myself, my life.
Because if you're worth me crying for, you won't be the one worth me smiling like how I always do.

weeeeeeeeeee~

"You may be excited about the prospects of pushing your feelings into new territory today, but you tend to be much less passionate with your words than how you actually feel in your heart. Paradoxically, it's much easier to express what you want through bold actions rather than writing or talking about your needs. Remember, you aren't responsible for how others react to you. Just walk your talk and you'll be okay."
by twittascope.

Much Appreciated

2010-08-22T00:30:00.003+08:00

Technically yesterday, attended NDP Sengkang-ers Appreciation for one another & it was awesome. Well, it's really nice to know how important each and everyone of us are. & the little things that we share can be appreciated and kept inside one another. It's really awesome!
You should see how we bond in just a little time and we've come this far(: Awesome max!

Love the people! Even those that have very little communication with! It's us ((:

Awesome people! ROCK ON yeah!

And you know what. I learned to cherish the least important things that happened in life. I appreciate the things that I've gotta go through or have gone through. I know how important my family, families, friends and even the passer-by that are in my life, even or a single second.

Sometimes I got pissed by people's action towards me. But you know what, this really made me think 'bout it. I asked myself and found my own answer. & I've grown from it, I understood and I eventually thank it for happening.

So well people.
Appreciate is a simple yet complicated, easy yet difficult word. If you've known it deep enough, the meaning you got would be different.

& ya.
As much as I wanted to write more , I stop myself.

The full heart but . .

2010-08-20T15:21:00.003+08:00

Been rather fruitful these days! ((: Spent a lot and I think it's time to save abit but all is worth the price! ((: I've got a bunch of lovely girls in school and I've got another bunch of sweet girls who are always always there for me! What's more then this?

& Today marks the 2nd day of the arrival of my baby nephew - Carrick boy ! You know how excited I am since Wednesday! I was jumping screaming all around in school until I met him yesterday night! Awesome max!

OHhhh! Went for SukiSushi's lunch buffet on Monday! It's AWESOME with all the eclair hanna lobster salmon and woooo~ Guess what? I'm still having my SIP now & I'm out for BUFFET LUNCH! All the way from Tampines to Hougang!

(((: Appreciation tomorrow! Gonna appreciate each otherrrrr!!!

爱不单行

2010-08-17T21:23:00.003+08:00

爱不单行 by 罗志祥
作词:严云农
专辑:罗生门

找不到人说心里的寂寞
找不到人懂怕黑的折磨
找不到命中注定在一起的那个人
很多人都像我一个人过生活

爱只有简单笔画却比想象复杂
恨安定爱变化
我爱过几个人也被爱过几遍
却还是没能将幸福留下
爱是不可数的吗为何我还相信
它不是独行侠
我在等一个人在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕

用不完身边泛滥的自由
开始怕孤单是一种诅咒
羡慕我能飞的人为何在天黑以后
还是宁愿回到爱情那个枷锁

爱只有简单笔画却比想象复杂
恨安定爱变化
我爱过几个人也被爱过几遍
却还是没能将幸福留下
爱是不可数的吗为何我还相信
它不是独行侠
我在等一个人在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕

告诉我爱不单行相信它

Nineteen((:

2010-08-14T00:00:00.002+08:00

houuyeah. This is the most recent photo((: & smack your stupid face. LOL! Okayyyyy!
Happy Birthday !!! (:(:(:

I sang it already. I gave it already. I celebrated it already!
((:

yeahyeah(:

SMILE SMILE SMILE!

Fruitful Week

2010-08-13T23:43:00.002+08:00

It has been a really fruitful week! Things like last training, NDP2010, Dinner with Nune & people, celebrated Laiho's Birthday, arrival of bro from camp makes me feel really blessed and LIFE! ((: I'm still not over NDP yet, i mean i still miss the fun we had ! I'm gonna do it again if time allows me! yeah!

Really Awesome! You guys should go and see the pictures taken during these events!
(View my wall, although it's pretty messy. Just see!)

P/S : The strawberries are really awesome! LOVE IT TO THE MAX!

不是因為要放棄而發現你的手, 是因為我把心和腳步放慢才發現你一直都在.
有雖能真正體會?

NDP2010

2010-08-09T23:59:00.000+08:00

I've got an awesome meaningful and fun time yesterday! It really nice to be part of NDP2010! I love the way it is and you know what! We rocked the SK heartland! ((: Awesome people I've met and I really love them! Saturdays are ours right! *surpps*

It's really a great experience and I'm glad I've overcome all the tiredness and persevere till the actual day. The training days may be really tiring due to my school and the waking-up-early . But the training always makes me smile and laugh and enjoy. During the training, I've never thought that the actual day would be that fun because the focus of NDP is at Padang right. But NO YOU KNOW! NO! Totally wrong. I'm actually glad that I'm at Sengkang heartlands!

Motivators rocked the whole NDP2010 and you know what!! We rocked the end of NDP2010 too! Everyone goes gaga and woo! That's us.
We jumped around the front, spammed photos, dance 'Holiday' again without any stress, shouted like nobody business, enjoy the last moment of NDP2010 ! Happy like mad.

& yeah! From the start till now, it really something valuable that can't be learned and understand easily. It's through experience! I still remember how strange are we when we all met each other. And now! We can really go mad together. What's most important is that we shall not stop this friendship from going((:

I'm very glad that I made a right choice to join NDP2010!
Love everyone to the max. & this make me feel more Singaporean and I'm proud to be one!

HOME((:

What's in your mind?

2010-07-31T17:04:00.003+08:00

OMGOMG! I know right, I never blog for half a month. LOL! ((:
Yeahyeah! It's August tomorrow!
& You know what? I never know MPSIP in school can be so fun! Love the girls ! They're really awesome! C:

Taken lots of photos this week! Awesome! ((: Seriously cam-whoring luh!
Let you see abit. teehee.

Brother is in army now! The family misses him. Had a farewell steamboat dinner on Wednesday & we also celebrated my aunt & Dajie's Birthday ((:

Celebrated Wendy's 20th Birthday in school yesterday! Awesome!!!!!

& sneaked out of school to downtowneast during lunch! Played the bumber car & it's super fun! I wanna play again again and again!!!

& this is the card for wendy! The photos shows the selected few amongst the whole lot of photos taken during the week!

To see all the pictures taken so far: CLICK HERE !
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=68166&id=1110341051&l=2314014f0d

School is so much fun.
But when it comes to sitting down inside the lab, I felt lonely, quiet, lifeless, meaningless, guilty.
)):

& it's another 6 weeks to the end of semester 3.1 .
Already wondered how would my 3.2 be.

This feeling is coming back. It's going round and round. It's gone before and now it's back.
I don't know why. Pretty sucks. & I would rather be in silence then to hurt myself. I would rather force a smile then to get hurt. You know what's hurt?
I felt like I'm falling on the same wound over and over again.
Eventually it'll get numb and you know what? That's when my feeling get locked.
It's happier to be love then love. How many agrees?
If you're gonna leave me, please don't leave footprints in my life.
I don't want to force a word out of my mouth, that's why I rather keep quiet.
& I guess you know, that's why you're doing so.

& I miss the girls a lot. Meet up soon people!

My Dearest Girl

2010-07-16T14:36:00.004+08:00

Ummm, How should I put this in? I just want to let you know girl. ((:

Just be yourself because you know what? People love you for who you are. You should never hide yourself in front of us (: Family love you no matter what. True friends should see your every weird good funny bad sides.

Even one day you stop smiling, I'll never blame you but thank you because you don't hide your feelings in front of me. Even one day if you never feel how you always felt, I'll describe the feeling specially for you to feel it again. Even if you didn't find the right one, you still have me and most importantly, Family. Even if you don't know, I'll try my best to let you understand when you wanna know. Even when you start crying, I'll be your tissue paper and you can have candy instead of chocolate. Even when you starts to burst, you can throw your rubbish in me because I'm willing to be your rubbish bin. Even if you stop liking yourself, I'll still like you and help you find yourself. Even if your answer is yes and you get do feel hurt, I would be your medicine and lets hope for speedy recovery. Even when you cry, just give me a call and I'll be there to lend you my shoulder or back & my ears. Even when you broke the handle of life, I'll pull you and never let you go. & When you never feel special again, please remember, you're so unique to everyone because you're Soh Wendy. C=

Girl, You never fail to let me feel excited and happy and love everytime we're together. You don't need to be anyone to make me feel it that way. Even if we meet in silence, I'll still feel it that way ((:

You know what? This is what sisters are for. & we share such a common ending name. LOL!
Loveya!

Neglected

2010-07-16T10:47:00.002+08:00

This MPSIP semester is really a period of time that let me go through deep thinking.
Real deep.

Yesterday, I realized that I've neglected the people I love a lot. Partly due to the long hours in school. Leaving home early and coming back only for dinner and then it would be silent time alone in my room, preparing for the upcoming day & doing my own things.
I talked to friends more than my family. Well there should be a balance between that yeah?

Last night was a really heartbroken night. I've neglected how she felt alone at home. I've neglected how she's been doing at home. I only realized everything when she called for attention. This is really a sad thing. This isn't suppose to be the way everything works yeah?

I went speechless when I saw the tears in the dark, my heart sank when I hear the sob when she talks. Oh man, I just hope I can stay with her all the time. But if I weren't so busy, I wouldn't have realize all these that has been happening secretly.

I felt reluctant to head to bed when I know these are what she's been thinking in her mind. I would like it so much to hug her to bed, to be with her all the time.

Things that happened recently really make me think of you so much. So much that I wish 6 years ago, you would be strong enough to stay. I hate the thing that causes you to be this way but why am I seeing people around me having it in them? ): But I know, you've tried your best. Just that life isn't fair at all. The good ones always need to go, why is this so?

I think of you a lot recently. I wonder if you know that everyone misses you very much? So much so much. The things that you've done for us, I'm really grateful. So grateful that I would want to give you a big tight hug . If I didn't hear 'bout the past, I won't know the amount of things you've done for all of us. All I can do now is do my best to take good care of our dearest.

Even though I didn't know how things happened in the past, I've got this feeling now that tells me - If it's not you, there wouldn't be me today.

I've been wanting a quiet time with you, but I know that when I have the opportunity, I would turn speechless. I wonder if you know what has been running through in my heart, my mind? & if you're really there to hear me say?
Well, nobody knows. But if you're, would you see what I'm saying now? If you do, please let our dearest feel it. Give her to warm, security, good health, smile. Because we can't afford to lose her at all. Because I know, without her, everything now would be broken.

Summary yeah!

2010-07-14T15:47:00.003+08:00

Hello 'all C= How's life eh?

Been having fun in school recently. All thanks to the company of Azlin Yvonne Wendy & Priska yeah? ((: They're my breakfast & lunch mates ! Azlin is my travel-mate! LOL!

yeah to all the enjoyments ! See my big smile ((:
Oh! & I didn't update the blog due to scar photos. LOL! Not really luh. Actually it's all in Facebook. Didn't realized that I've created many albums in there already!! Umm~

The last training session for NDP was awesome and fruitful (: Finally caught-up with the dance. Thank god((: & it's tiring but it's nice to dance! hurhur C=

Can you guess what I did after the saturday training? ((: BIG BIG SMILE C=
The guys above are awesome(:(:

AWESOME PEOPLE AWESOME LIFE! Agree?

This was from Monday after school. Oh yeah! Monday wasn't a school day for me although I did my clocking-in & out.
Stepped into SimLimSquare when the shops are opened to hunt for webcamera with the 2 groupmates (: Everybody agrees that getting a webcam don't need the whole day. But we were granted whole day off from school but we need to be back my 5.30pm to clock out. haah haah ! So we have plenty of time left after lunch! So head to catch Eclipse(:
You know what? This would mark our first movie together. AWESOME day!

Aftermath rushed back to do the clock-out and cabbed down with the girls to dte for another MOVIE(: Awesome or not? LOL! Watched Despicable me (: & you know what again? It's really funny!! Recommended((:

2 movies straight in a day & this shows why i'm on bread now. LOL!

Worth it tho(: LOVES!

I was just complaining that today is only Wednesday. But thank god that it's Wednesday because I'm happy today(:

Huimin came to Tp to have lunch with meeeeee (:
Saw Huiyin in design! high5 again =p
Now I'm meeting Cherelle in awhile ((: yeahyeah!

Well, last week was a terrible week for me. But no worries. I'm adapting to it and praying daily hoping for a better day everyday.
I wanna tell everyone that I love my sisters a lot and including everyone around me. No matter what, I'll stay strong.

I just hope that tears be awake when the day gives way to the night.

Well, I really thank god for giving me a sweet dreams that night. It really helps a lot and it made my day smile. C=

& you know what again? I've got lots to say in my heart, but when I wanna pen it down or say it out, every single thing went to hide ):

Ice Cream ssss

2010-07-02T11:27:00.002+08:00

HELLO! That's what I eat yesterday when I'm back in school after 3 days MC! ((:
& guess what! I'm alright now okay!
Indeed, Ice cream cures throat pain. Yeahyeah. THe 3 days of MC is 'bout me having Throat infection and fever and that antibiotic cause me rashes. I at first thought I have got some Hand foot and mouth thingy. LOL!
& was granted 3 days MC . This week past so freely.

I've all my sleep back that 3 days.

But yesterday, after school went Erjie place for dinner and off to bugis for some TCC and yeahyeah. I reached home at 11plus plus. Slept after midnight and I go gaga this morning. I need sleep again. Wahahalaoooo!

Ohwell. Today PR 1 ! Hopefully the judges are nice((; Pray hard.

Tomorrow would be another day of training! It's JULY already people!
Another month to Singapore's big day yeah!

SMILESSSSSSSS PEOPLE C=

Screaming brings me back to the past.

2010-06-26T23:01:00.003+08:00

Today ended pretty nicely C= The people I met rocks! CHEERS!
Actually thought today won't be that fun but I was wrong. It started a bit low but the warming up games really brought me to another level. Played that 'Watermelon' game which until now, I still don't get it why it's named watermelon. LOL! & also played 'Wife & daughter' or something like that one. That was fun. Haaa! =D

Then it continues with trainings and off to the parade!!
Mood got higher and higher with all the people around me! C= Love the team mates! hurhur. Fun people! Screaming and cheering and all. I really felt I went back to the past. I use to scream to this extend when I go gaga on idols. HURHUR! When I grew older, the chances gets lesser. So I really enjoy the screaming and stuff but wow, now my throat hurts a little.

I'm very tired now. Tomorrow would be my only rest day before the school days starts AGAIN.

Well, school's second term started this week already. That shows why I'm not blogging that often as compared to holidays! Firstly there isn't much to say 'bout school. No photos taken too. Wordy post would be quite hurtful for your eyes! Haaaaaa! See how caring I am. LOL!

This week kinda fruitful for me! Quite love it but bits and pieces . . y'know. C= I know you know, very good.

Yeah! School together with Azlin and co. damn fun! It really gives me life! Seriously. Add ons, I met SohWendy on Tuesday for sneak-out lunch! AWESOME! Finally met after don't know how long how long. By the way, if you're wondering why I put her sername down, it's due to the number of wendies I met. LOL! Got it?!

HAH!

What's more? I watched Toy Story 3 on Wednesday night! I rushed like mad from school to home to suntec. I felt like I ran 2.4km when I walked from cityhall mrt to suntec towel3. Serious. I'm not kidding. I walked effing fast!! VERY.
& at the end of the movie, I felt the bottom of my foot hurts. Hurhur.

You know what? Friday is the most happening day.
Thanks to the wet weather in the morning. I got myself caught in the rain. I was late for school for only few minutes. I reached school with my hair, tops and shoes wet. I spent stupid money to buy slippers and socks. I let the shoe dry for the whole day in lab (most people did that).
That's the worse things.

The nicest thing is that I met Huiyin Weishan Yvonne and Yixuan! Jalan Kayu's prata for dinner! C= PLUS! We had dauhuey aftermath! Triple Awesome luh! & talked a lot, laughed a lot. Can't stand a big big butterfly or something and we left. LOL!

Well people, this is roughly the summary of my week.
Hurhur, I didn't know I can actually do summary. Why didn't I score well during Olevels? WAHAHAHA!

Karate Kid

2010-06-18T21:52:00.003+08:00

Karate Kid is an awesome movie! It has been quite some time since I last think that nowadays movie are that good. I mean, not lousy. Just not that good. You get me? Well anyway, I like this movie! It's funny!

Caught this show with Priska!(: Thanks for asking me! If not I might miss this movie since school is starting. When school starts, life's gone. We bought a couple of junk food into the theater. LOL! Shhhh! I know it's wrong, but who cares! It's so dark. LOL! At least we cleared the stuff nicely and leave okay! Not like those that eat popcorns and spill it all over the place. TSKTSK.

Oh wait, anyway! brunch is bahzhang and junkfood. KOI after that too! Too satisfied((:
Yayaya. My house bahzhang haven't finish.
Dinner consists of junk food from the night market too. GAH!
JUNK-ER FATTER.

Tomorrow is SATURDAY! Which means . . . It's time for some training!((: Wonder what would we be learning tomorrow! Kinda excited! Just hope I don't get too grumpy when I wake up early, again. Been waking up pretty early lately. & this seems healthy to me. At least it won't turn so bad when school starts.

Know what's bad 'bout school? It's simply the long hours of doing nothing. Felt that I wasted my life there. GAH! Whatever it is, I just got to discipline myself and stick my ass to that lab's chair for another 2 months. BREATHE Candy, breathe.

So people, how's your holidays? Mine is fine. Gonna enjoy myself and make full use of the remaining 2 days to the max! I'm please that I'm able to meet most of the people during this holidays. Did lots of catching up and slacking around.
& I can't wait for Tuesday to come! Weehee((: Lunching with Wendy! YEAH! E X C I T E D ! Where's nice to lunch around school? Um. TELL ME SOME IDEAS!

Okay. Imma watch 就想赖着你 now! Making full use of my time.

P/S : I'm loading photos to FB now! So shall tag you guys as soon as the photos are up! ((:

Nose running

2010-06-17T20:10:00.006+08:00

It has been a whole day that my nose can't stop running away. Like damn, I wasted quite an amount of tissues. Gah!

YEAH I HAD AN ENJOYABLE DAY YESTERDAY!
It's very nice to meet them once again. Although the weather isn't that convenient to walk around, it's still cooling enough ((: & I'm glad to see everyone going on with life, in their own ways. GOOD!

Suki Sushi Buffet & Kbox for us. WOW MAN! That K room is the biggest I've ever entered! Note that there's only five of us. Yes babe, 5.

The day ends early! Back to be the nanny of the girls.
Glad to say the girls really grown up a lot already(: So I didn't have a hard time. LOL! I only gave them all my cushions in my bed, leaving only 2 for myself. Felt empty, so naked. HAHA! You know why! Because I always sleep with lots of cushions stuff surrounding me. Hurhur (:

Waking the girls up is very simply when they're over at my place. LOL! They really follow my timing very well. Heh heh! Sent meimei to school! & spent my day with Chloe at home. Playing, Slacking and doing her holidays homework. Lazy worm. Keep telling me she feels like playing this and that when she haven't complete her work. Then when comes to work, she tells me that she's tired, she feels like sleeping. Lazy fatfat. haha!

TOMORROW IS ELECTIVE SUBJECT SELECTION!
Gonna wake up early to get it done. Hate this kind of first come first serve thing when it comes to ONLINE! The damn server will be lag like some smelly shyt. HAHAHA!

& I'm damn happy after hearing a news last night! =D Very grateful that my effort paid off well. Thank Gods((: Effing shocked too!!!

Ohyeah! Finally 偷心大圣P.S.男 episode 16 is out! Watching it soon! But it's still not ending yet. Gotta wait like don't know how many weeks man. I think 1 week 1 episode only! )): Meanwhile, I'm watching 就想赖着你! Hurhur. C: Gonna enjoy this kind of life before school starts.

On a side note, I didn't do anything regarding MPSIP during these 2 weeks! A little guilty but it fade off after awhile when I've other things to do. WHAAHAHAH! opps.
Anyway, I haven't got the software installed to my lappy yet leh. Gotta get it done soon. I'm really taking my time to install the software. teeeheee.

P/S : I'm loving the photo's effects. DAMN HAPPY when I sees all this pretty photos. hurhur! LOVE IT! Please don't get sick of it. Wahahah!

TATA((:

Vintage.

2010-06-16T10:52:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps. beep beep! I'm here, again, because I realized that there are a couple of things left unsaid. LOL! Yeah.

Alright! Last FRIDAY (:
Met up with the girls for catching up! If you noticed, this holidays of mine is mostly 'bout CATCHING UP CATCHING UP and MORE catching up. LOL! That's the point!

Friday is a very nice and fruitful day! I think I ate quite a lot the entire day. Wahaha!
Woke up damn early & met Huimin at Aljunied. We walked down Geylang's street, entered a dimsum shop between Lor19 to Lor21. LOL! It's a 24 hours shop! Coolness. hurhur.
& we had out BREAKFAST there. teehee.

We're damn full and satisfied after the food. But think it wasn't the best dimsum I ate before luh. But well, acceptable bah.

Next on, we separated and left for our friends. LOL! Both had plans.
So I took the long bus journey to meet Huiyin! ((: & head to meet Yixuan! Yeah, another such a long time never meet.

Our catching up happened between Dhoby Ghaut and Vivo City. LOL!
& glad Weishan made it around dinner time! yeahyeah. We settled at Long John for dinner & chatted all the way till closing. Cool! ((: We really talked a lot. hurhur. GIRLS you know.

& the night ends pretty(: I remembered waking up the next morning early too. Almost dead. Woke up for the ndp training stuff. Thank God for the strength. HAHAHA!
The training wasn't as weird as I thought it would be. Damn high. LOL! FUN((: